But I Love him..

Ch. 4

Leigha's P.O.V

I'm so done with X it's not even funny! I have another human being to think about now, I didn't care about myself enough to leave him but I love my child more than life itself and I will not allow harm to come it's way. In a way it's my fault, I let him get disrespectful, I allow him to treat me the way he does. I don't care that he's with his bitch and their baby, they can have him, me and mine don't need him. I'm online as we speak filling out job applications so I can save enough money to move away from him. I wish I wasn't so dependent on him because without him I don't have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out of. But I do have Tylee, my best friend. We ran away together and always had each other's back. I know she will let me crash at her place until I can get my own. She been trying to get me to leave X since day one.  She hates him and he hates her too.

After I filled out several different applications I made my way to the guest bedroom to take a nap. I drifted off t I add sleep with my baby on mind. I know I have to do better for us.  I

I wake up to X gently shaking me.

"Baby wake up." I just stared at him,

"Why you in here Leigh, go get in our bed."

"I'm not sharing a bed with you anymore Xavi." I could tell he was getting pissed because his jaw flexed. I was horrified on the inside but I was standing my ground. He took a deep breath before speaking.

"Leigha I said I was sorry,  what the fuck else you want me to do?" Nigga you can't be serious!

"I want you to leave alone for good, let me go and never contact me again. I'm leaving you X." My voice cracked at the end.
His eyes turned dark then he got up and punched the wall. Before I knew it he was in my face,  I saw his hand come near me and I flinched hard awaiting a slap. Instead of a slap he caressed my cheek.
"Leigh you can't leave me, you promised me you wasn't gon leave. I need you baby, I can't live without you. I promise I'll never hurt you again. You can't take my baby away from me Leigha!" His words made me cry.

"X you hurt me bad, you cheated on me and had a baby, I don't deserve this! I love you soooo much. I- I- I- I can't do this anymore. " I broke down, he pulled me into his lap and I just cried my heart out right into his chest. My heart was bleeding and there was no bandaid to stop it. He kept whispering I'm sorry's and I love you's in my ear while he kissed my neck. He knew what he was doing,  he was trying to make me forget all the pain he was causing my heart.  He was trying to seduce me and make me forget I was leaving him.
He hit my spot and I started to squirm away. He just held onto my waist tighter and made me take it. I began to forget all the  revelations and epiphanies I had over the past eight hours.  I wasn't going to leave him,  who was I kidding? I need him as much as he needs me. He stated to undress me and before you know it I was flat on my back with my legs in the air.  He was making slow sweet love to me and I was enjoying every minute of it.  I know I shouldn't take him back this easily,  I know I should leave and never come back but I love him.

Sorry so short but I just wanted to update because it's been way too long. I promise the next chapter will be better and way longer than this one!