shawn mendes imagines

"are you embarrassed of me ?"

Y/N's P.O.V
me and Shawn have been in a relationship for about 6 months and through those 6 months we have been keeping it a secret, trust me it sucks not to hold his hand in public and not being able to post a cute picture, we cant go on romantic dates, we cant kiss. Ugh i can literally make all of these reasons into a book.

right now me and shawn are out going to watch a movie

"alright y/n what movie do you wanna watch?" He asked me

"how about..." I said looking through the options "Moana" i smiled

"really?" He chuckled

"what? What's wrong with it ?" I said

"it's for kids y/n"

"No it's not its actually for everybody" i pointed out

"ummm..what about rogue one?" He asked

"By the title itself i can tell its really boring" i laughed

"No its not they said its the continuation of star wars" he pointed

"you're cute babe" i chuckled

"no pet name while were out in public y/n it'll ruin my career" he whispered

suddenly the smile on my face turned into a frown. literally there are a lot of rules i cant even show my love to him

"ofcourse that's always what matters" i mumbled hoping he wouldn't hear

He looked at me like i was stupid. Uh-oh too late

"what do you mean by that?" He asked

"Let's not talk about it here it'll ruin your career" i copied his actions

"Get in the car now" he said angrily

he went straight to the car while i followed him

i smell a fight coming in.

through that drive we didn't even spoke he just kept his eyes on the road and he didn't hold my hand like he used to .

by the time we walked in our apartment he shut the door angrily

"what the fuck does that mean?" He said angrily

"nothing Shawn go to sleep" i said i was getting annoyed besides it wasn't my fault

"No! Were doing this now" he said

"i said no Shawn I'm too tired to deal with this" i said while walking to the stairs

before i even get half up he grabbed my wrist hard.like really hard. But i shook it off

"Fine Shawn!" I got out of his grip "I'm sick and tired of keeping things private for the past 6 months i cant hold your hand in public, i cant post a cute picture us and its really hard because it's always about your career" i almost cried out

he looked at me like I'm insane

"career always comes first before you y/n i can find a girl anytime but a career that only comes once" he yelled

it hurt me like hell inside because really who wouldn't?

"fine, then go find another girl" i said calmly and grabbed my phone, keys & purse and hed out the door

"Y/n wai-" he called me but i already slammed the door

i went out and started my car being prepared to drive and who knows where I'll go

SHAWN'S P.O.V : (this is rare guys)

as i saw her walk away from me and my  heart broke what it felt like literally into pieces

i tried calling her

....no answer...one more...no answer

i kept trying what like hundreds ? I cant even identify of how much i tried

I laid my head back on the bed and put my arm in my forehead I'm sweating because i'm really worried of what might happen to her .

i fucked up real bad i kept calling her but it always leads me to her voicemail.

Y/N'S POV
this is the most intense fight I've been with him because usually on every fight we had we fix it right away, this is the first time I've walked away

i don't know where i am to be honest I've been driving for it seems like an hour I've been receiving calls & texts from shawn every now and then but i chose to ignore it

i stopped at a beach since today i need to clear up my head and just stargaze for a bit and just sat at the sand and let the water splash onto my feet and thought of shawn. i really miss him . was it right that I walked out ? i have a lot of questions running through my head and suddenly i started to cry

SHAWN'S POV:
i decided to air out a little and go for a drive so that i can clear my mind up and find her its been 2 hours since she left and i don't know if she's in the hospital ? is she dead or alive ?

As i decided to drive i cant stop myself from looking at every corner to see if she's there.

cmon think shawn think where would she go in times like this ?

I kept thinking and nothing seems to pop into my head but i didn't give up yet

ummm let me see...she loves to go stargazing every once in a while and she loves water splashing into her feet....now where could she go to do all those things ? ..... AH ! THE BEACH

I quickly headed to the beach and searched for her car and found it i stepped out of my car and searched for her suddenly i found her right where I think she was at the sand but she wasn't looking at the sky unless she had her head buried to her knees

seeing her like this tore me apart to think that i caused this, so i came to her slowly and hugged her from the back and grabbed her waist she jumped a bit and once she turned around and realize it was me she started to cry again and hugged me back

"im sorry baby I'm so sorry" i said as i held her tight

"i know I'm sorry too some point in my life i need to realize that your career is more important" she said and laughing slightly

"no im sorry i said that that was all bullshit you're more important and i love you and i hope u forgive me" i looked at her

"ofcourse dumb ass i love u too" i kissed her cheek and sat there admiring the beautiful scenery

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, sorry i haven't updated much I've been really busy :<