Hack my heart

Chapter Fourteen - Just a fuck up

Alisha

Hot burning pain

I was thrown out of the front door by the blast

I couldn't remember much but my arm burned like all hell

And Wrench

I could hear him

I cried for him but I couldn't talk I couldn't pry my eyes open

"Fuck fuck I'm such a fuck with such a fuck up" I could hear him he sounded sad like tears clogged his throat

Then I was being lifted and everything went dark

Wrench

My hands shook violently as I sat there next to her

I couldn't talk I couldn't think

I was numb

So fucking numb

I had fucked up fucked up worse then I had ever in my life

I kept remembering what it was like to see her there on the street in her own blood knowing I did this

The rest was a blur I called Marcus and we got her back home

The others came and went from the room I hardly even took notice

I just watched her

Waited for her to wake up

We called a contact who was a doctor who came and examined her she had cut her arm and been knocked out but it was a miracle she had survived

I had ripped my mask off when we got back

For once it felt like it was suffocating me

I stared at it on the ground hating it for the first time in my life

Sitara came in

"She's going to be ok Wrench this was a horrible accident"

"I knew this would happen" I told her finally speaking

"I knew it was a matter of time before I fucked up but I kept her close anyways fucking selfish" I said through gritted teeth begging my weak ass not to cry

"Wrench stop this, stop punishing yourself" She said

"WHY!" I yelled and she flinched

"Why shouldn't I punish myself look at what I've done she doesn't deserve this" I said motioning to Alisha lying on the bed still motionless

"I should of distanced myself from her should of kept her fucking safe" I said

"She would hate to see you like this Wrench" Sitara said and walked from the room

I sat back down next to the bed

"Wrench" I heard her whisper