Thoughts

Chapter twenty-one (Milan)

I wake up without he warmth of a body next to me. I wake up without his scent flowing around the room, besides the faint scent on the pillows. I hate this. I just admitted to not wanting to wake up like this ever again. But I did. I fucked it up and I need to fix it. soon. Today.

I fucked up yesterday. I can still hear is voice. His scared voice telling me: ''It's ..... You.''

I couldn't believe my ears! He likes me? He has a crush on me? How did this happen? What do I do? What do I say? Why does he like me? Is this real? And as I kept thinking about this Max was waiting for a reaction. He asked me to say something with a desperate voice.

But I couldn't. Then he whispered: ''Just say something.''

But yet again, I couldn't. I wanted to scream four words at him ''I LIKE YOU TOO!'', but I couldn't. I wanted to kiss him but all I could do was stare at him.

But then he stood up and said: ''I'm sorry.''

I wanted to tell him everything I felt. But I was frozen. I wanted to yell at him to come back. All I could do was watch him leave. I just sat on the same spot for an hour after that. I finally unfroze when I heard my phone buzz.

I looked at it and I noticed that Tom was calling me. I picked up and I immediately heard his angry voice blasting through my phone.

''What the hell did you do!''

''I -I ''

''Do you have any idea how broken he looked? What the fuck happened!''

''We ... eh ... we had a fight.'' I said not wanting to tell him what really happened.

''You better fix it.''

''I know, I know.'', I sight through the phone.

''Wait? How do you know this?''

''I was at Thomas' place when all of the sudden Max came walking in with tears rolling down

his face.''

''Thank god he's safe. Should I go fix it now?''

''Are you kidding me? Do you really think he wants to see you right now? Whatever you did, it really hurt him.''

''I know.'', I sighed once again.

''Go to Thomas' place before school and fix it.''

''I will. Thanks for telling me where Max is.''

After that we talked for a bit longer before we got off the phone and I went downstairs to shamefully tell my parens Me and Max had a fight and he was at Thomas' place.

I swear I saw our moms giving each other some knowing looks.

And now I lay here in my bed pondering over what words to say to the blonde.

I look at the clock and drag myself out of bed. I need to do this before he leaves for school. I quickly dress myself and eat some of my moms delicious breakfast, even though I don't deserve it. After that I grabbed my keys and got on my bike.

As I finally reach the drive of Thomas his house, Thomas walks out of the front door with a worried face. That worried face was quickly replaced with a scowl the second he saw me.

''Dumbass.''

''I know, I know.'' I say, holding my hands next to my head in surrender. ''Is Max still in there?''

''Yeah.'' He sighs. ''He doesn't feel like going to school today.''

''Can I please go in there, to fix this?''