Build Me Up, Hold Me Down

Just the beginning

Nischia's POV:

(Still in the past)

Times like this, I wonder why I even still put up with the bullshit. It had been about a week since me and Dominic had the discussion about who his little stalker was but shit didn't go back to normal.

It was like shit was just happening that I didn't even think would happen so early on but I couldn't complain because I hadn't told him that I was done, I put up with it but right now I just needed some space because of the shit that occured a few days ago.

It was Monday morning, Me and Dominic had been on the phone all night which was nothing new. I was in the cafeteria eating a chicken patty and curly fries for lunch and talking to Dominic on the phone at the same time before he said that he was sleepy so we hung up.

I had just finished eating and was on my way to walk around before class started when I got a incoming call from Dominic which was weird when he said that he was about to go to sleep. I was just about to answer when the phone stopped ringing.

Wierd...

I thought to myself before my phone started ringing again. He was calling back so I answered the phone.

"Hello"

Instead of Dominic's voice, I head a female yelling at him in the background telling him that he was full of shit and that she hated him.

"Hellooooo" I yelled, I was starting to get pissed off because for one Dominic lived by hisself so I knew it wasn't his sister and she was talking to him more like a bitch that he use to fuck with rather than somebody's sister.

I guess he figured out that his phone was on because before I could say hello again, the line cut off.

I was about to call him back and curse his ass out but I had to get to class so I decided to send his ass a text to let him know that I heard everything.

To: Key2MyHeart: U really are a fuckin piece of work moe but have fun with the bitch thats at ur house.

I was so mad but I put myself through this bullshit when I should have walked away when shawty kept saying something about him being at her house and about them being together.

I am not a fan of having somebody make me look stupid but that's what I feel right now.

So stupid

Sighing, I went to class and tried to do my work but how could anybody stay focus when their "so called" boyfriend has a bitch at their house and has the nerve to call you by mistake.

If you going to do dirt, you got to be a little cleaner and Dominic's shit was all over the place.

What did I get myself into?

Here I was, 16 years old and in a relationship with someone whose 6 years older than me. I should have known that shit like this would happen. Just because I didn't act my age didn't excuse how old I was.

I should have stayed away from him ass

I should have never opened that damn facebook message

I should have known better

I was blaming myself when I shouldn't have been simply because I didn't know. I didn't know that this would happen, I didn't know that he would treat me like this but what I did know was that I wasn't going to keep falling for the bullshit.

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School was over and I was finally at home, in my bed, starring at the wall.

I couldn't stop thinking about him and he didn't make it any easier because he had been calling me for the last 3 hours. He had left 4 voicemails and sent 10 text messages, all to which I didn't respond to.

Baby, answer da phn

Nischia, can u pls talk 2 me?

Moe u actin real fuckin childish

There was more but I got tired of reading them so I stopped.

I'm acting childish?

How the fuck am I acting childish when I have every right to be upset. I'm tired of his excuses because as soon as I answer the phone and I hear the bullshit ass explanation, I'm going to be right back to loving his ass and I don't want to.

I want to forget him, I want him to go away, I want him to go back to where he came from before he even met me.

Man, I hate love

I whispered to myself with tears rolling down my face.

I didn't want to cry but I couldn't help it.

Why is this happening to me?

Why must I feel like this?

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A/N: I know its short and I know I haven't updated in a while but I hate writing on my laptop & I just got a new phone. I will be back to posting updates weekly or bi-weekly so don't be upset. This is just something to give because I had writers block!

-Treese❤