Build Me Up, Hold Me Down

Holding On

Nischia's POV:

Baby pls answer the phone

I can explain Nischia

So this where we at?

I couldn't even take a fuckin nap because my phone was ringing non-stop

Text from Dominic

Call from Dominic

Voicemail from Dominic

Facebook Msg fromDominic

I was so tired of seeing his name pop up that I started to cut my phone off but who knows if someone would need me in case of a emergency so I decided against it.

I was hurt and I just couldn't deal with the bullshit right now.

I knew I would have to let him explain eventually but wasn't sure I wanted to,  I was too young to be dealing with shit like this and I wasn't going to put myself through it if I didn't have to but I had already fallen for him.

Dominic had baggage that I was no longer sure that I could deal with. First, it was the stalker bitch, Now, it's a anonymous bitch whose yelling and telling him that he ain't shit and don't nobody got time for drama.

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And I

Know that he won't break my heart

And I

Know that we won't ever part

Its time, time for us to settle down

And I

Wanna be with him forever!

"Stop calling me" I said in a sleepy tone, I didn't want to answer but I was never going to get any sleep at this point if this nigga kept calling me and it wasn't even night time yet.

"I been calling your ass allday moe" Dominic spoke

I could tell that he was angry from the way he was breathing and by the tone of voice he was using with me but who the fuck told him that he has a right to be mad but then again who really gives a fuck?

"Calm your voice down and don't you think I know you've been calling, I have all 42 missed calls but what do you want Dominic?"

He didn't respond for a few minutes but I knew he was still on the phone because I could hear him breathing heavily

"Dominic, I don't have time for this, I'm about to hang up" I spoke taking the phone off of my ear but before I could hit the end call key I heard him speak.

"Nischia, why are you doing this to me?"

Doing this to him? What was I doing to him but taking myself out of a situtation that I knew would only hurt me in the end. I was young but I was taught to not be naive and the answer to this problem was starring me straight in the face, I had to get out before it was too late.

I was a sentative person, words could break me, It wasn't healthy but my heart was good and I couldn't let Dominic destroy that.

I had seen people hold on to a man that was obviously not trying to be held onto, Women often drive their self crazy trying to fix something that can never be fixed and the end up not knowing how to find their self because they have lost so much in that one man and I promised I would never be like that,  I would not let a man string my heart a long.

"Doing what to you Dominic?" I asked

"Don't play dumb, doing this"

"Your not answering me Dominic" I said

"Why do you keep running from me, I love you and you know that but yet instead of asking me what you have on your mind or telling me what you feel, you run from me. I have been trying to explain to you what that whole conversation was all about but yet you ignore me like a child. That was my ex Angel, she thought I was joking when I said I was good on her so she showed up and started arguing about her being there for me and how could I just leave her, she ran in my room and my phone was on my bed so that's how you heard the conversation because she called you.

"Nischia, I am a grown man who has pussy thrown at me left and right and if you can't trust me or if your going to keep acting like a fucking kid then tell me and I will step the fuck off because I am not going to chase your ass, this shit is only going to get harder and if you want me to leave then say that"

I didn't know what to say but even if I did then what would I say

Yes, I was tired of the bullshit but I didn't want to lose Dominic, I wasn't trying to end up a hurt woman but I didn't want to let go of the man I knew had the potential to hurt me.

I was confused and I didn't know what to do, part of me wanted to run like hell from Dominic but the other part of me only wanted to be closer to him and see if I was strong enough to compete against everything that came along with being with him.

"Nischia, I'm only going to ask you this one time, do you want to be with me?"

Did I want to be with him?

Could I even handle being with someone like him?

Could I ever trust him?

Would I eventually become one of the lost women?

I didn't know and I was scared to know the answer to my own questions.

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A/N: I know it's short but college is taken a bitch on a loop right now, it's almost over so just bare with me. Hope you enjoy the chapter

Treese❤