Build Me Up, Hold Me Down

To Love

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.

To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.

I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true;
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.

- Kellie Spehn

Nischia's POV:

(Present time)

Is love worth all of this pain?

Was the first question I asked myself while I was laying in the bed. Ever since I had got out the shower my mind has been roaming.

Dominic had left to go over his man's (friend) house, so I was left to think to myself.

Why we always got to go through the bullshit first just to TRY to be happy?

I thought to myself. My shower had been going just fine until I started singing the lyrics along with Ms.Cole

See woman to woman, I know he ain't right
Looked me in the eyes and lied a thousand times
I can't believe he did this to me
I gave him my heart, so what's it gonna be?

Yall just don't know how bad I wanted to hop my ass out that shower, (soap bubbles and all) just to go find Dominic and bitch at him for putting me through all this bullshit.

It never was like this. In the beginning I was all he thought about. We would talk for hours, laugh at any and everything or just sit on the phone and breathe on nights that we couldn't be with each other.

Hell, if I was even anywhere close to where Dominic was at while I was out with my mother, he would always make it his business to come see me wherever I was, even if it was only for 5 minutes.

Dominic is a good man and out of these past 3 years, his only down fall is these bitches but isn't that enough?

Is it too much just to want someone to be with only you?

I have been everything that Dominic has wanted and needed me to be and the same went for him except he was missing one thing.

Staying faithful!

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I try not to be the jealous type and I try not to blow up on shit that shouldn't even matter but I do. I can't help it.

I was never like this in past relationships but then again I only been in one other serious relationship besides with Dominic but with that person, I never had to worry about different females because I never saw any, I never had to try to figure out why he took his phone everywhere because he always made me hold his phone and I never had to question what I meant to him because he always made sure I knew.

I know it sounds like I'm wishing Dominic was him but I'm not. I'm just wishing that Dominic would open up his eyes and see what he has, I wish Dominic would understand that these bitches ain't going to be here in the long run but my wishing is exactly what it is.

A fuckin dream!

Sometimes I feel like I should have just ignored him when I first found out about his ex because then I wouldn't have went through all that I have went through.

I'm sure yall already know about that messy bitch Angel and I hate even talking about that bitch but yall need to know the shit I've dealt with so it won't seem like a bitch just bitchin for nothing!

Where do I even begin?

Well, I guess I should start with how I first found out about her, that would make perfect sense right?

Are yall even ready for the shit I'm going to tell yall?

Well, I hope so because just thinking about that btich gives me a headache but I have to let yall know the real shit, that woman to woman shit (in my Keyshia Cole voice)

Here it goes.....

A/N: It's short I know but I wanted to give yall just a glimpse of the present before I take yall right back to the past but in Nischia's point of view. Plus, I'm not in no rush because the people that read this book don't comment nor vote so I'm writing at my own paste, If I got the feedback, it would be a update every week but OWELL sue me!

-Treese❤