Not for the Weak (Humanstuck Erisol)

:Ten:

Today's the day.
I'm kicking the chair today.
I can't do it anymore.

He looks at me like he wants me back but I know he hates me. Feferi and Aradia haven't spoken to me since I punched them. Rose and Kanaya are never around anymore and neither is Karkat. I'm alone in this world. My brother is too obsessed with learning electronics from our dad to help me and dad's too obsessed with teaching him.

I'm afraid I'm a little too obsessed with death as it stands.

It's like it can't come quickly enough. I've been waiting for so long. I crave the sweet release. What purpose do I serve anymore? Trick question- I never served a purpose. I'm just another empty soul striding through this stream of faces. Everything lately has been a sort of blur. But then again, I guess that's a good thing, right?
I can't seem to tear the thought of death away.

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Eridan, if you so happen to read this, I'm sure you don't miss me. No matter how you felt or feel about me just know that I always loved you. It never ceased. When you left me outside that day, I'm afraid it only grew. I love you, ED. From now through death. And I leave you with my regards.

Don't forget me.