Relationships and dysphoria

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My fiancé called me today and we talked for a while.
He still doesn't get the while genderfluid thing.
At first he thought I was gonna leave him for a girl which I don't get. My gender doesn't affect how I feel about him. But I explained that and that I'm no different than when he met me. All I've done is tell him something what I am.
He's been pretty accepting though, which I'm pleasantly surprised.
I knew he was bisexual when we met and my telling him my gender as well as my sexuality helped him realise he's pansexual as well. I'm glad I was able to help with that.

Today was an in-between day and I like not having to deal with bras or pants today.
Most days are in-between days for me. Which from what I can tell isn't technically fluid; it's nonbinary. I just feel like fluid fits me better.

I've been thinking of investing in a binder, although I'm wondering if I'll use it enough for it to be worth the money. Knowing me, just cuz boobs are a hassle, I probably would.

One question before I sign off, is it weird that even when I feel like a guy, if my hair isn't long, I feel weird?
I cut my hair short years ago and I liked it when I felt like a dude. Then the next day, when I felt like a girl, I felt trapped as a guy, even though my hair was still long for a guy. I hated it. Anytime I dressed like a girl when I had short hair, I felt like a drag queen.
So unless my hair is long, I feel weird. Therefore, as a guy, I'm basically a long haired metal head, which is fine by me.
I doubt that that's normal, but does anyone else have weird things they have to have as both genders or they feel weird?

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