Today is a girl day.
Usually when I'm a girl, I wear my hair down and a lil makeup, but I found some old hoop earrings from before I stretched my ears. I recently got tunnels so I can wear them again. They make me feel sufficiently girly.Since I don't have a binder, boy days consist of too-tight tank tops under baggy shirts. The tank does an okay job compressing and the baggy shirts hide the rest. Add a beanie over my tied up hair and viola!
However, I have more nonbinary days than not and since I'm lazy, those days consist of hoodies and pj pants. (Or hoodies and jeans if I'm going out).
My body modifications are fairly androgynous, since stretched ears are done by both genders, and I've seen men and women with industrial bars, so those don't betray my base gender.The only thing I can't do anything about is my hips. (My heritage leans toward wide-hipped women. All the women in my family have them.)
I've tried working out and stuff like that to help make them look thinner but since my hip bones are wide, I can't do much. It sucks on guy days when men look me up and down and usually, I use my deep voice and go, "You got a problem, bro?" And they scurry away. (I like doing that because you know they went home and were like, "I just looked at a dude's ass. Am I gay?" It's great.)There are times when I thought of taking testosterone, not enough to make me fully a man, but enough to where my boobs would be smaller and maybe my hips wouldn't be so wide. (I mean, fat wise.) I hear it also helps with muscle definition and I think having biceps might help with the dysphoria. (Girls can be buff, too.)
I'd love it if someone who's a fluid like me and has used hormones could tell me about how things went with that. Did it help? Was it a mistake in your eyes? I'd like an opinion before I start looking into doing it.
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Genderfluid Problems
Não FicçãoThis is basically a journal book detailing my adventures as a genderfluid. I'm Lona or Luther. They/them usually. I'll specify if it changes