I Am The One (Kpop x Male!Reader) (Male Various) (BoyxBoy)

VIXX Ravi x Depressed!Male!Reader

Requested by Pizzaisover

I hope you enjoy it.. It's not that good but I tried.

I took in deep breaths of air trying to slow down my heart rate. As I rounded the corner my mouth was covered and I was yanked into the dark alleyway. I struggled in the arms of my captor.

'Fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking shit, of fucking course shit fuck' I thought to myself as I continued to struggle uselessly.

"Damn Jagiya calm down," Chuckled a deep voice above me. I took a deep breath to calm down before I turned slowly to be met face to face with Ravi. I squeezed my eyes closed and then slowly opened them again.

"You little fucking shit Ravi, You almost gave me a damn heart attack!" I whispered as I poked his chest, more like stabbed at it with my finger. He smiled before pulling me into a tight hug and kissing my forehead.

"Sorry, I had to get you into a secluded area, They've been watching my moves lately,"Ravi muttered. At the last statement my brows furrowed and I shoved him away. I made eye contact with him. His eyes wavered slightly, that small movement put me on guard.

"What the fuck do you mean they've been watching you?" I asked him my fists clenched at my sides, my eyes flitted to the areas around me occasionally. He grabbed my hand in his before letting out a sigh.

"I think they're suspicious of me right now," He stated calmly. But I on the other hand was anything but calm. They were watching him? You have got to be fucking kidding me right now.

"I think we should take a break at least until they forget about this." Ravi stated. At that I felt the blood drain from my face and my heart started to slow down. He noticed this and smiled sadly at me.

"If.. If it's because of this we can work it out right?" I asked him frantically trying to get him to change his mind. He didn't..

"This is all my fault," I muttered to myself repeatedly as I rocked back and forth in my dark room. I wasn't good enough for him. He didn't fight for us. Sure we were in rival gangs, but.. He gave up so easily. I wasn't worth it. These thoughts came back to my mind the moment I was alone with my mind.

'I'm probably bothersome that's why he left me. I was too much work. Fuck [M/N] why are you so fucking stupid? If you weren't so fucking worthless Ravi would have stayed with you. Even your parents didn't want you what makes you think he loved you?' I thought to myself as I reached my hands up to pull at my hair. I slammed my fist into the wall repeatedly until I could feel the hot crimson blood flow down my arms.

"Hey [M/N] Rapmonster and I.. Are you okay?" Kai, my 'brother' asked me leaning against the doorway to my room. I turned to look at him slowly. A grin stretched across my face and I tilted my head to the side to look at him with dull blood shot eyes.

"Of course I am Kai, I'm perfectly fine, why wouldn't I be?" I chuckled lightly. His eyes widened as my chuckles turning into full blown laughter, and I reached up to pull at my crew neck shirt.

"[M/N]-"

I cut him off when I slammed my fist against the wall again. I couldn't hear anything he said after that.

"Get the fuck out.." I growled at him when he tried to reach my shoulder. His brows furrowed in confusion. 'Get the fuck away from me, Don't touch me, I'll dirty you, I'm disgusting, If you touch me you'll realize that, Go away.'

"Get the fuck out of my room," I screamed at Kai and he bolted out of my room as I started to laugh uncontrollably. I pulled at my arms as I gripped my shoulders I knew I held them hard enough to leave bruises. I didn't care though because..