Behind Closed Doors [1D FanFic]

[22] Leave, Now

Estelle's POV

'You have to stay the fuck away from Niall' the very words circling in my head, also the ones that haunt me each day like 'your fat' 'ugly' 'bitch' the usual things but Simon is making everything worse.

He keeps on telling me how useless I am, and how I Niall can do so much better than someone as fat and ugly as me, and I believe him now... Niall is only with me because he feels sorry for me, he doesn't really love me

*BUZZZ BUZZZ*

"Hello?" I ask into the phone wandering who is calling me at 9pm

"Listen you fat slut, why are you still with Niall? he can do so much better than you!"

"Oh.. Simon you were 3 hours away from breaking your month long daily calls of threatening me to leave Niall" I retort into the phone

"SHUT THE FUCK UP AND ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTION!" Simon rages into the phone

I hate how his anger levels can escalate so fast.

"I don't want to leave, I love him" I say weakly

"But he doesn't love you, he just feels sorry for you. When was the last time he even said 'I love you'? huh?" He asks accusingly

"I don't remember..." I say trying not to cry

"He won't say he loves you because he doesn't love you" He says

"He m-must d-do" I stutter

"Tomorrow you will come over to my house so we may discuss your... traveling plans and if you dont then I can assure you that you will never be apart of  Niall or any of their lives ever again but If you do, you will be rewarded with a person whom you have not seen in many months that would love to see you" He offers

"No one loves me apart from him"

His name is getting to hard for me to say without breaking down and drowning in tears

"He does not love you, an he doesnt care. So come and visit me tomorrow I will send someone to pick you up at noon when the boys are in the studio, dont tell them or you will suffer the consequences. Remember he doesnt care" He replies as he hangs up the phone

Niall doesn't really care, I haven't seen him in a week. The other guys come and check on me each day and so far Harry then Zayn then Liam then Louis then Zayn and Harry again but Niall hasn't came back home once this week...

I walk over to the bathroom and take out the plastic bag in the bathroom bin and find my blades. I place the bag back in the bin and take out a black towel an place it on my lap as I lean against the wall "not even a day clean..." I whisper so quietly no one could even possibly hear

I place the blade on my wrist and press down on my previous scars hoping to get more pain so I can release the mental pain

"HELLO?" Someone yells "ELLE, IT'S ME!"

Shit... Niall

"One minute I-I'm in the bathroom"

Shit my voice broke

"You ok?" Niall asks as he knocks on the door

"Yep" I say quickly as I wipe the blood off my wrists

"Can you come out then?"

"Just a minute" I say and start rubbing the cuts "fuck" I curse under my breath

"Why did you say fuck?" He asks

"It's n-nothing"

"Why did your voice break?" He asks and starts banging on the door to enter

"No r-reason"

"Estelle Juliette Reid, let me in right now!" He demands

"Why?" I ask back accusingly

"Because." He replies sternly

"That is not an answer. Just tell me you don't love me so I can leave and not have him yelling through the phone!" I yell at him, bringing my hand to my mouth as I have realized what I have just said

"Him? who is him?" He asks sounding pissed

"No one" I lie as I refer to Simon

"You better not be cheating on me"

"I would never" I tell him as I open the door to see the handsome face that has been missing from my life for the past week

"Then tell me who he is" Niall again demands

"I don't think I should" I say lowering my head

"You can tell me, you can trust me" Niall says as he raises my head with his fingers

"S-Simon..." I say nervously

"What has he been doing to you?" He asks "Let me see"

"See what?" I ask

"Your wrists, let me see" He demands

"No" I reply

"If you wont let me see, tell me everything about Simon"

"I don't see you for a week and you come back and start questioning me and I don't even get an explanation?" I ask

"What did he say to you?"

"What my father would say to me..." I say shamefully

I just watch as Niall's jaw drops but I lift it back up so he doesnt have such a surprised reaction

"It's ok, I can handle it" I tell him

"No it's not, why would Simon do this?" He asks questioning himself

"He doesn't want me to be with you" I mumble

"WHAT?!" He yells

"He thinks you can do better... and... you don't love me..."

"WHAT?!" He yells again

"That your just using me for publicity-"

"I would never" He says stepping closer to me and putting his hands on my shoulders and kissing my forehead

"You love me?" I ask

"Always, I love you Estelle Reid" He replies

"And I love you Niall Horan" I say

He kisses my lips, gently, but passionately and by that one kiss I know he means the words he spoke

"Why did I not see you for a week?" I ask in a voice that is not an accusing tone

He sighs "Simon... he...he had me work on our next albums sound, making me think I was doing good, making me assume that the boys did give you care and love which Simon must not have passed on... what is going on with Simon?"

A/N

Omg I can't even, Midnight Memories is amazing Happy Birthday Harry even though you wont read this but I hope your day is filled with all the love from your families and I am also really bad at writing deep stuff so don't mind me but happy birthday harry and if anyone else's birthday is today or the day that you are reading this well then happy birthday

SUMMARY

-Estelle got a call from Simon (as usual)

-Estelle will be rewarded for seeing Simon tomorrow

-Estelle is visiting Simon at noon tomorrow

-Simon told her Niall doesn't care or love her

-Estelle cut herself in result of the phone call

-Niall came to visit Estelle while she was harming herself

-Something is going on with Simon

-Niall Loves Estelle

-Estelle Loves Niall

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