Saving a Life Season 2: How far will I go? Remastered.

Reunited

(This doesn't pertain to anyone who hasn't wrote a book on TWD/TWDG)

Ok before I start the chapter um.... Something is going to happen in the chapter that everyone has thought about doing so if what happens in this chapter that some of you wanted to do in your book don't get mad at me this was my personal idea and I don't want anyone to throw beef at me Ok now on to the chapter. (That sounded bitchy)

After awhile Carl left and me and AJ were just in our room.

I walked I went into my bathroom and started to look at myself. I started to think 'should I let it go?' Or 'keep him in my memory?' I was looking at my hat and there is still Lee's blood on it.

I decided that I'm going to wash the hat to ease the pain that I caused him.

I went down stairs, went to the kitchen sink and started to wash my hat. But no matter how hard I try to get the molded, dried blood off, it never seems to.

Then, AJ came into the kitchen and started to play in the water that I spilled while washing my hat.

I dried off the hat as best as I could and pit it on AJ's head and he tried to look up but he couldn't see me and he started to whimper.

I reached down and lifted up the hat. 

"I'm right here goofball" I said smiling.

He smiled and giggled as he resumed to play in the puddle. Then I take the hat off and put something in it to remember Lee before putting my hat back on.

Then a knock on the door rung to my ears. I go towards the door and unlocked the top lock and turned the handle.

And guess who was at my door, I don't know. He looks too familiar. He looks like Javi. And 2 seconds later I see Javi next to him looking rather ecstatic about him.

"Hello Clem and guess who turned up at the gate." Javier started.

"Who?" I said not interested.

"My nephew Gabriel but he likes to be called Gabe." Javier said as he went into our house with 'Gabe' and sat on the couch with him.

"So your going to introduce yourself?" Javier said to me as I walk and then sat on the couch.

"Alright, hello my name is Clementine but you can call me Clem anything otherwise I won't respond to you." I said.

AJ slowly walked to the couch and raised his hands up, he wanted me to pick him up.

"And this little guy here is AJ its short for Alvin Jr." I said and I smiled at AJ and he does what he normally does. Giggle.

"Yeah I've heard you been through a lot I'm sorry." he was interrupted.

"Ok Gabe, can I uh.... talk to you for a sec now?" Javier said and stood up as well as Gabe.

I couldn't here what they were saying because my mind is locked onto Lee. I know I just washed his blood away but I realized I'm still not over him. I pull my hat off my head and take the photo of Lee out and stare at it.

The tears flooded back but this time, just let them fall and hold onto the photograph.

Why can't I just let it go? I would've starved to death if he hadn't found me. He's the reason I'm here now but I still feel I'm to blame. I was so keen and desperate to find my parents but I had to fuck it up. If Lee was alive this could've been better. Kenny would be alive, Christa and Omid would be here. All because of me there dead.

I know it's not my fault but I just can't get over the fact that AJ should have someone better that me. He needs someone full fixed not someone still going through emotions like me.