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Ch14 ~ Think not of the future...

Jimin and Yoongi were immersed in the kiss for what seemed like lovingly slow decades, but once they pulled away from each other, those slow decades quickly condensed back into seconds - both parties wanting more than they should've to meet lips once again. It was an innocent kiss, one they hadn't planned on, one Yoongi was glad was their first of many, glad he could've shared it with someone he loved. His parents claimed to love each other dearly, more than they loved themselves, but he wasn't entirely sure they were telling the truth anymore. When he was a child he knew for certain that his parents were ardently in love with one another, as the years past however, he started seeing his parents less and less, never saw them together anymore and he often wondered if they had split without his knowledge of it. And if so, why? Why would two people who had possessed such an unbreakable love split without even seeing their only son? What reason could it have been?

"Are you sure about this?" Jimin asked, his cheeks ablaze with blood rushing to the under-surface of his skin.

"Why wouldn't I be?" Yoongi said softly, their foreheads still stuck together as they spoke. Jimin pulled away slightly so he could look into Yoongi's hazel eyes, immersing himself in their chocolatey color as he stared intently.

"Have you thought this through?" Jimin queried, his heart racing as he maintained a violently

"There really isn't much to think about." Yoongi shrugged as he ran a hand through his ebony hair. To Yoongi there was only Jimin, he was all he really needed to think about.

"What'll people think?" the young teenager was spouting questions just to get to the one he was most dreading to ask, it wasn't something they liked to talk about.

"I don't care what people think." he chuckled, thinking that Jimin's questions were ridiculous. Even if the stereotypical couples in South Korea contained a man and a woman, Yoongi didn't care to be anything but different, he was unique from the day he was born, being weak and unable to stand on his own.

"Two men holding hands isn't what the relationship stereotype is around here."

"I know, but when have I ever cared what someone thought?"

"Well..." Jimin hesitated before he got his next question out, not knowing if this would trigger the end of their budding relationship. "what about the future? Have you thought about that?" he asked. Yoongi went silent and his heart beat out of time, hoping Jimin wasn't going to mention the taboo subject.

"What do you mean?" Yoongi whispered, almost trying not to let his black-haired companion hear his words.

"Hyung, I'm your organ donor." Yoongi froze at the sound of the word coming from Jimin's mouth. He did it, he mentioned the taboo subject Yoongi thought. He never thought he'd live to hear him say it. Yoongi didn't like the term and it wasn't something they liked to talk about, they hadn't even attempted to touch on the subject since they didn't like the morbidity that came with the subject. "The very purpose of my birth was to extend your life, this heart." Jimin put a hand to the left of his chest. "This is yours. Yours alone and I'm not just talking romantically. It's literally yours." Jimin felt a lump in his throat and his voice began to tremble at the thought that was racing through his mind with great haste. " I-If... we go through, with what I think you want to go through with... I'm not going to be with you forever..."

"I know..." Yoongi whispered out quietly as he looked elsewhere to hide the brimming tears in his eyes. "I just... I know that it wouldn't have been the same if you weren't here with me..." he choked a little, the words coming out more tearful than he intended.

"Hyung..." Jimin held Yoongi's hand gently, hoping he wouldn't cry. Jimin didn't like seeing him cry, didn't like when he saw Yoongi hurting in any way, even though he knew Yoongi was hurting every day of his life, he couldn't even walk on his own. "

"Jimin, I know I don't have a lot of time with you... that's why I want to make the most of everything we have ahead of us." He murmured out through the desperately contained pools of liquid in his eyes. "...I'm not strong enough to let you go, I'm not going to let you go." He told him, claiming him with every word. "You're the only person in the world who doesn't look at me and think how weak I am, you look at me and you see something, see me as someone I could never depict myself to be... beautiful. You see me in a way no one else does and you accept me for who I am, and I'm not prepared to have you die for me, I don't want that to happen."

"Hyung..." Jimin was crying now, his heart in his throat as he struggled to speak above the waterfalls of tears on his face. "...you know, I'd do anything for me to be with you till the end of time, to be able to wake up to your face till the day I die a natural death in my old age... but I also couldn't bare it if you died and I didn't use my only means of keeping you alive. I'm not giving up my purpose in life, cuz if I do, what will be left of me when you're gone?" he clutched a part of his shirt in a fist, where Yoongi's heart laid beneath his toned chest. Yoongi sat there for a second, watching Jimin cry into his palms. It hurt. It was agony to look at him while he was in such agony. Jimin had always been strong enough to fight his own battles, he'd always been strong enough for the both of them, but on that day, he let down his guard and showed a sense of vulnerability in front of the very person he always thought he was going to be strong for until it was time to give up his heart to save someone he loved more than himself.

"Let's not think about the future..." Yoongi suggested, pulling Jimin into his upper torso and stroking the trembling boy in his arms with a cautious tear trickling down his cheek. "...let's live now, and only now, only worrying about the future when it comes..." they stayed there for a while, both crying as they held each other for the first time after restraining themselves for so long. Yoongi could only hope his current heart would last long enough for them both to stay happy... even if it was just a little while...