eclipse [m. gunnarsen]

chapter 13: dont touch me

martinus pov//
i woke up to see marcus and luna sleeping. she looked like an angel sleeping. i really just wanted to kiss her. should i? she wouldn't know she seems in a deep enough sleep. i went over to her and bent down to kiss her. i felt like i was a prince waking her up with my kiss. oh shit she is waking up.

luna-"aw marcus good afternoon my love."

she looked up and realized he was still sleeping. her eyes widened and she sprung up. she looked at me and realized what had happened.

martinus-"um hi luna."

luna-"martinus what did you just do to me."

i walked closer to her but she backed away from me.

martinus-"i'm sorry i didn't think you were awake. it was stupid."

luna-"stay away! marcus is going to hate me now and i can't lose him. i have gone years without him and i'm not about to lose him for another four years! do not do that ever again."

martinus-"luna i'm so so sorry. please don't be mad at me. i will tell marcus."

luna-"how could i not be mad at you? you just kissed me!"

she was trembling. she started freaking out. i think she is having some sort of panic attack! i went to go help her but she just didn't let me near her.

luna-"no no don't touch me!"

martinus-"why?"

luna-"because..."

she started breathing really heavily. she fell to the ground and was holding her stomach. i could tell something bad was gonna happen. oh god what do i do.

luna-"marcus..."

was all she could say. i ran to go wake him up. i shook him and he got up. it took a little bit but he finally woke up.

marcus-"martinus what!"

martinus-"luna she is having a panic attack! she's having trouble breathing and is freaking out. she won't let me touch her."

marcus-"oh my god."

marcus ran to her and saw her on the floor. he tried to help her up but she backed away. what is happening? she won't even let marcus touch her. was it because of me?

luna-"no please please don't touch me. inhaler."

she hardly spoke that last word. marcus was confused but he didn't care because right now she wasn't really breathing correctly. marcus after opening every draw found it finally. he gave it to her and she pumped it a couple times. she took deep breaths in and out. after a couple more times she was okay. she had tears rushing down her face.

luna's pov//
i could feel the tears rushing down my face. it still hurt to breathe. i was sitting on the ground. i have had an attack like this since...that day. not jaime. jaime was two years ago but the other thing was a year ago. i shuttered at the thought of that. it still burns in my memory. why i haven't had my first kiss in a while and while i'm taking things slow. marcus and martinus were looking at me. i felt like i was being closed in by the two of them. i took some deep breathes there was silence before someone spoke again.

martinus-"luna i'm sorry about this morning. i didn't mean to give you an attack. i didn't realize you were sensitive to...well im not really sure."

luna-"martinus you need to go."

marcus-"what happened this morning..."

i looked at marcus and then at martinus. martinus knew what he had to do. i started crying again. what if marcus never talks to me again? why martinus did you have to do this? i can't believe him. how could i ever trust him again. this is the worst thing he has done because he doesn't know what this leaves on me. the damage is done.

marcus-"answer me!"

martinus-"i kissed luna when she was sleeping. she woke up and thought it was you but then realized it was me. she freaked out and screamed in my face. then she started getting an attack and she wouldn't let me go near her because...because well i don't know that part yet. and now we are here. marcus i'm so sorry i didn't think she would wake up and-"

marcus-"get out."

martinus-"marcus-"

marcus-"GET OUT."

he quickly ran out. it was just me and marcus he looked really upset more sad than mad. or well both. i was scared to say anything.

luna-"marcus i'm sorry i didn't know what was happening."

marcus-"no no luna it's not your fault sweetie. i love you and always will. but martinus he has done this before. he promised he would never again and now-"

he started choking on his own words. he started crying. i wanted to go hug and make him better but i was scared after what just happened. screw this. i went over to him and hugged him. he wrapped his arms around me. he was crying on my shoulder. he went in to kiss me but i dodged it.

marcus-"now i'm afraid you don't love me. luna why won't you let me kiss you? is it because of martinus...i knew it. he ruined everything didn't he.

luna-"no marcus i love you. it's just martinus forced himself onto me and..."

marcus-"and what? luna i love you you can tell me anything."

i started breaking down in tears. this is so hard. harder than jaime. and that was devastating.

luna-"marcus you need to know something."

marcus-"luna you are scaring me."

luna-"last year i was um..."