I Don't Mind If You're Overrated (Austlan)

I can't feel anything anymore. (Austlan)

"Aussie.. Aussie, wake up baby" alan whispered

I slowly opened my eyes and the ginger beauty was leaning on my chest and looking into my eyes

"you're awake" he smiled kissing my bare chest

"yeah" I giggled "come on, lets go get some coffee and then we can shower" I said putting my boxers and throwing Alan his

"okay" he smiled pulling on his boxers and kissing me on the cheek.

"come on my little ginger princess" I said hopping out of my bunk and scooping Alan up bridal style.

I started to walk to the front room, Alan giggling the whole way.

"uhh, what are you guys doing" Tino asked

I looked up to realize everyone one else was staring at us.

"ohhh uhh, we just joking around" Alan said jumping out of my arms

"uhhh huh, and why are you two in your boxers?" Phil questioned

"It's all just part of our big fucking joke." I snapped, turning around and walking into the back room; slaming the door behind me.

I couldn't belive he did that! we agreed we would tell them! he promised he wasn't ashamed of me! but I guess thats to good to be true. why would anyone ever love me for real? Maybe he was like Gielle and was cheating on me this whole time...

I pulled out some skinny jeans and pulled them on and grabbed a slayer shirt to wear ontop. Once I was dressed I unlocked the door and sighed before opening and walking out.

"Hey Aussie" Alan smiled at me

But I just scoffed and gave him a death glared before walking outside into the warm california sun. Before I knew tears were falling down my face. Fuck my emotions! If Alan didn't want me, then I didn't need him..

I was about to start walking... I needed to get away but then I felt someone grab my arm

"Austin? What's wrong?" He asked sounding completly oblivious

"Really Alan?! You're really going to ask me that?!?" I yelled turing around "whats fucking wrong is that I love you but you're so ashamed to be with me that you won't even tell our best friends! That I can't kiss you or hold your hand in public because you're afraid some one will see us! I know I'm bad... but I don't deserve this! I love you Alan, and I'm starting to think you never even felt the same! That the only think you ever wanted from me is my fucking dick! And how the fuck do you think it makes me feel seeing you at bars talking and flirting with girls because you don't want the guys to know about us! Do you know how fucking worthless that makes me feel?... I love you Alan.. you know I do. But I can't do this if all you do is lie to me. I'm more then just something you can use for your own fucking pleasures and then just throw away." I said, my voice begining to crack and my tears starting to fall faster.

"Austin.. I.." he whispered

"You know what! No! Just forget it! Alright!? I'm fucking done!"

I looked up at him and he was crying almost as hard as I was.

..But it was all fake, even his tears. No one would ever love someone like me, I'm so worthless it's not even fucking funny. Alan should have just let me die when he found me... I wish he had..

I turned around and started to walk away but he grabbed my wrist.

"Austin Robert Carlile I fucking love you and I don't care who knows it" he said and then he crashed his lips onto mine and forced his tongue into my mouth and tangled it with mine, letting me take control.

I snaked my hand into his hair and pulled his body closer to mine enjoying every second of it.

I finally pulled back and we were both gasping for breath.

"Well, thats something you don't see everyday! Carlile and Ashby tangling toungues!" Tino joked

"Ohh uhh well.." I stuttered

"Yep. And it's fan-fucking-tastic kissing the man I love." Alan winked

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