KiK Love// Ziam au

~15~

So this chapter is going to be really short. I'm sorry but I had no other plans for this. Zayn and Liam are started to get all complicated and I want to make this story longer. So bare with me please. :)

bigpayno: ZAYNNNNNN I AM SO SHOOK!!!!

bigpayno: AHHHHHHH!!!!

bigpayno: YOUR VIDEO HAS 4 MILLION VIEWS 

bigpayno: AND 90 THOUSAND LIKES!!! OMG!

zayn: Really?! I haven't checked! :O

zayn: Hold up for just 2 secs.

zayn: OMG! 4 MILLION VIEWS! :O

bigpayno: IKR! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! MY LITTLE ZAYN GREW UP SO FAST! 

zayn: This is amazing bro. 

zayn: I never knew my cover up would be so big. 

zayn: I didn't expect this.

zayn: Like at all! This is so sick!!!

bigpayno: Now you really have to audition for the X Factor. 

bigpayno: People are going crazy for you!

zayn: I know! All these girls are all up on my grill. 

zayn: Even some guys! 

bigpayno: Ok, lets not get too carried away. 

bigpayno: You are still mine.

zayn: I was never yours in the first place. 

bigpayno: Ouch. That stings...

zayn: Sorry, didn't mean to sound so harsh.

bigpayno: I know, I know. 

bigpayno: You were never mine in the first place. 

bigpayno: You're right.

zayn: Are you ok Liam? 

zayn: You sound a little sad, even though we are just texting.

bigpayno: No I'm fine. I have to go...feed my dog. 

zayn: Liam? 

bigpayno: Then I have to uh...do some chores. 

bigpayno: I'll talk to you tomorrow Zayn. 

bigpayno: Bye.

zayn: Wait Liam!

zayn: Great...

zayn: Bye... :/

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L I A M

It hurt knowing that Zayn was never going to be mine forever. I mean, I barely know the guy but I'm already falling for him. He is almost everything to me. I'm proud to call him a friend, but I want to be more. Zayn is younger than me and I should be the more controlling one but the fact is, I'm nothing but a wuss. Zayn has always been the one to have the hottest lads and ladies after him. I on the other hand, don't. 

Seeing that Zayn actually likes talking to me fills a huge hole in my heart. I think I might have a chance with him, but seeing his career start, might mean that he is going to see me as just another fan. The truth is, I love Zayn. Not in the friendly manner, but in a relationship type of way. When he first told me that he didn't like to talk about his sexuality, I felt as if he wanted to exclude me in his life. But when he opened up to me, saying that he was bisexual, flattered me. I actually believed I was a step further into his heart. 

But when Zayn said that I wasn't his, hurt me. No matter how hard I try, I feel like he is just pushing me away, when in fact, I want to get closer to him. I knew that I shouldn't have talked to him in the first place. It was so stupid of me to think that the bad boy junior will steal my heart. I know I have to be more mature about this, but its love. Love makes me feel stupid and do all this stupid shit. This is why I can't speak to anyone because of my dumbass actions. But Zayn is different.