KiK Love// Ziam au

~18~

zayn: I um...

bigoayno: Oh, you don't have to answer if you don't want.

bigpayno: I'm just being really stupud rn

bigpayno: Stupid*

bigpayno changed his name to liam

liam: Ignore that question

zayn: Liam...I just...

zayn: Idk

zayn: I'm not the kind of guy who express their feelings

zayn: I've been in so many relationships that fucked me up so badly to the point where I gave up in life.

zayn: It is hard for me to express my feelings to anyone really. I don't even express my feelings to my family, but I do so many things for them to prove to them that I love them still. 

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All of this was true. I didn't mean to hurt Liam. I had no idea what to say. Liam is a really great guy. He is also pretty damn sexy. The thing is, I am getting signed from a record deal. Liam doesn't know that. Simon Cowell just emailed me saying he had great news and had introduced me to an awesome record deal. Rihanna and Chris Brown were signed into that record deal! How sick is that?! I was set up to meet these people tomorrow afternoon, during 5th period. I have no idea how to tell Liam this.

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liam: Oh...

zayn: Look Liam, you are an amazing guy.

zayn: I do have feelings for you.

zayn: There, I said it.

zayn: My feelings for you have grown every time we talked. Every time I saw you at school, I wanted to talk to you but I was always so shy. You were part of the older kids and that intimidated me.

zayn: I would love to be in a relationship with you but..I just can't.

liam: Is it because I'm a boy?

zayn: No, it is not because you are a freaking boy Liam.

zayn: It is hard to explain in text.

zayn: I need to tell you in person. It doesn't feel right telling you through a small screen. 

liam: Zayn, you're scaring me. What's wrong. 

zayn: *sighs*

zayn: There is nothing wrong Liam. 

zayn: I promise.

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And of course, I am lying to him. I hate seeing Liam getting hurt. The last time he told me his puppy ran away, he lost it. He didn't eat for about a whole week and cried himself to sleep every time he thought about his puppy. I of course was there to support him the entire time. Liam crying over a dog was one of the worst things I have witnessed. He really loved his puppy. And I have a feeling that Liam really loves me. But I must be going wayyyy too ahead of myself for thinking all of that. 

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liam: Zayn, can I go over your house. I need to tell you something real quick.

zayn: Sure, my parents aren't home right now so you can come. Not that they'll mind. 

liam: Alright, I'll be there in about ten minutes.

zayn: Ok, I'll be waiting. 

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I walked my fastest to Zayn's house, thinking about everything I wanted to tell him. He was really scaring me when he told me that he had to tell me what he wanted to say in person. I was eager to know what it was so I had to go over his house. But that was not the only reason why I wanted to go over. I wanted to see him. Him and his perfect eyes, thick eyebrows, cute smile and beautiful face. Zayn was everything to me considering that we were only developing the best friend relationship. I knew that he was the man I wanted to talk to when I first laid my eyes on him at school. When Zayn told me he did had feelings for me, I freaked. And when he said that he was so shy and scared to talk to me made me fall for him even more. I like this kid so much. He makes me happy, even when he isn't trying to. I saw his house getting closer as I sped walked the whole way. "You can do it Liam." I told myself as I felt my heart starting to pump faster and harder. 

Before I knew it, I was in front of Zayn's house. I took a deep breath and walked towards the door and rang the doorbell. I started to shake. Really, really badly. I heard the door unlock and it swung open, revealing Zayn with his hair messy, him in a tank top and some sweats. Man did he look good. 

"Hey Liam." He smiled and looked at me. "What did you want to come here for?" He asked and stepped back to let me in, but I froze. I stood outside the house and looked at him for a while, his face expression confused. "Uh Liam are you ok?" He asks and steps forward. 

"I love you." I blurt out. 

Zayn looks at me and says nothing. All he does is blink and swallow hard. Then a small smile forms on his mouth, which makes me calm down a bit. He pulls me by the shirt and smashes his lips on mine, making my heart feel as if it were about to jump out. His lips move against mine and I follow. I feel him close the door behind me and lock it before he pins me against the wall and kisses me passionately. 

"I love you too." He growls out.