To You

its worse

i never told you

my hearing is getting worse

everyone around me has noticed

but i still make up excuses

because im afraid to admit it

but really i don't know why i wanted to tell you

its not like that would change anything

you would've just found another reason to hate me

my worst fear was going completely deaf

and its come true

i realized it a while ago

thats why i kept on asking to hear your voice

i was afraid ill never hear your voice again

that i would forget what your voice sounded like

and it would be to late to ask to hear it again

now that we're done

i wonder what will happen

will i try to remember your voice

or will i forget it

and learn to live

i don't want to be deaf

i want be able to talk freely

i want to be able to say i can hear the birds

or the train when it passes

i want to be able to hear lulu when she crys for food

i want to be able to live a normal life

like the one im used to

i don't want to live life pretending to understand

and i can't say its going by slowly

because its not

its going by so fast

each day i notice

im losing more and more

soon all sound will be gone from my world