True love lasts forever

Chapter 9

(A.N.) I feel so bad, sorry guys, my mom took away the internet for a week... I was also sick I'm so so sorry, I'm going to try to write a super long chapter for you guys, thank you so much, this story has over 100 reads, I never thought anyone would read this, thank you! :)  

                                                                             Lindsey's P.O.V.

      I agreed to Jayden, not willingly, of course. I just had to hear what he had to say. Maybe after this I will be able to move on with my life, even though I want Jayden in it, I know that will never happen. Jayden led me into the food court, he picked a random table, and sat down, glancing up at me. I cautiously sat down and waited for him to talk

      " Well" I said annoyed, but he didn't speak, he just stared into my eyes as if trying to read my mind"I-I look Lindsey after what happened at the dance, I realized that I couldn't live without you in my life. I was going crazy, I wasn't eating, or showering. I just sat there and thought about all the shit I put you through and how It's all my fault. I left you without a word said. I just left. If you would just please give me another chance, maybe I could take you on a date?" He asked with hopeful eyes

      I thought about his offer for a moment, thinking what it would be like with him back in my life. Having him there when I need him. I miss him so much it hurts, but I don't want to get hurt again. " I-I don't know... Listen I have to- to be some where so I'll see you around." I say and turn away sprinting away with tears already falling down my face. I get strange looks from people I pass by, but by this point I don't care.

         Once I reach my car I get in and sigh laying my head back on the seat, letting more tears fall. All I can think of is why this had to happen to me, I wish I could go back and erase all of the memories, all of the pain, but maybe there's one way to take away my pain.

         I start up the car and rush to mine and sadie's apartment. I pull up and park in my usual spot. I rush up the stairs and get out my key frantically trying to unlock the door, but dropping the key in the process. Once I get inside I put my keys and purse on the counter and walk up the stairs. I reach the bathroom and search frantically for the thing that will take away all my pain.

        I find the shiny metal object and sit on the toilet seat and stare at my cream colored skin. I trace the faded line on my wrist lightly thinking back to  the time it had releaved my pain. I inhale a breath and think about all the times I'd been hurt, all the times I'd been let down, all the broken promises, all the lies and cheating. I slit my wrist and close my eyes loving the feeling of the blade across my skin.

       I think of when I saw Jayden kissing another girl, of him loving someone else. Of how I loved him so much. I imagine his face in my mind as I make another cut in my precious skin. I think of the time he said he loved me and that he would never let me go. I think of all the laughs and kisses we shared all the love and happiness that was once so alive, faded into pure hatred. 

        I make one last cut slowly pealing my red rimmed eyes open and staring at the mess I had created in my skin. I rinse of my wrist, wincing a little, and putting on a couple bandades, in attempt to stop the bleeding. I clean off the razor and hide it under the sink. I glance up at myself in the mirror and let another tear fall at the sight of me. My hair is tangly and messy from me running my fingers through it, my red rimmed eyes, with bags under them and my wrist covered in bandages.

         I look away in disgust and walk out of the bathroom wiping my eyes. I go to my room and look through my closet, searching for a sweater to cover my bandaged wrists. I find a plain grey one, and even though it's the middle of summer, it's suprisingly cold in our apartment, I slide it on and make my way to the couch downstaris. 

         I pick up my phone, while turning on the T.V. I sit on the couch and see a text from Sadie ' guess what??? I'm getting stuff for sphagetti for dinner! I'll see you in a bit. :) ' I send a text back saying ok and scroll through my recent calls, seeing I have a new voicemail from an inknown number. I frown and click on it, curious on who called.

           " Hey urm uh, It's Jayden I wanted to call you to say I'm sorry again. Umm and do you  maybe want to go to a movie this Friday night? Maybe? I know you hate me but I want to show you that I changed and maybe we could start fresh, forget the past? Sadie gave me your number, and please don't hate her for it, I asked her please please call me back? I want to- to listen to the message again press 1..."  I hang up and from down at my phone.

             I grab a blanket from the other couch and snuggle into it watching whatever movie was playing on the T.V. frowning as to why Jayden would still want me after everything we've been through. I slowly close my eyes, a peacful sleep taking over me. 

               I am awakened to a loud thump, curious, I open my eyes and find Sadie laying face first on the floor, groceries dumped out on the floor. I sit up and rub my eyes and Sadie stands up slowly picking up the bags and food. I laugh a little and help her with the rest of the bags. I set them on the counter sitting on one of the stools. " So what did you do the whole time I was gone?" Sadie asks as she starts to make pasta for sphagetti. " Nothing much I watched some T.V. and yeah" 

              Sadie turns around after putting water on the burner for the pasta. She raises an eybrow and says "Oh really, you didn't go to the mall and oh I don't know meet Jayden" I look at her questingly " How did you know?" " Jayden told me everything LIndsey he was crying when he called me saying that you won't give hime a chance, c'mon give him a chance he's trying so hard!" I laugh harshly " Oh really then where was he when everything was falling apart?!"

         ( A.N. hahah for those of you who like 'the fray' should get that... continue) " Where was he when I was a mess and heartbroken! If he wants me back then he'll have to prove that he really does." I hiss with tears already falling down my face. Sadie stands there with a look I can't describe she looks like she feels how I feel, but she doesn't. I run up the stairs to my room and slam the door. I slid down the door, and pull my knees to my chest, soft sobs escaping my lips. What has happend to me?

(A.N) 

I'm crying at this chapter, it brings back all these memories and shit of my past...but anyways thank you so much for reading, I'll try to have an update soon. 

Bye all you beautiful people! Happy Velentine's Day! Will you be my Valentine?? haha </3

~Lindsaaay :)