so I am not really enjoying life at the moment
I feel very rejected by most/ everyone
and now I really know how it feels to feels to have no one. coz I pushed them away or hurt them.
I hating the fact that my new phone tells whos online and messaging people and that kills me so just when I never get a message
everyone is always like omg you vut last I am not talking to you well the reason why I fuvking cuted in the frist place was becoz yih wouldnt talk to me in the frist place. just dont
I am getting called alot of names at the monent and they just make you feel feel like shit aye and then I go back to skool nwxt week where my teachers hate me and I have to listen through how they burn fags and that I should be hung by my neck for liking the same gender.
then I have the other students that guve me the push up againdt the lovker or hit my books out of my hand or I am always last to be picked for anything
I guess I am tired of being in last place
I dont want this anynore I just really want to stop hurting people have friends and have people message me and then be good at skool and get a good atask for uni
I use to being rejected but at this I am ready to reject the world and give up
-gabe 23/1/2014
