For The Love of Music

Chapter 8

I had been in my room all day studying and i was still studying, right now i was doing my physics, a subject i liked a lot. I was finding it hard to concentrate because Mads kept distracting me, her image was all i could think of and everything i read or saw reminded me of her. It was now dark and i may not know the time but i know i would have to get ready soon. I wasn't focusing so i thought some music would help, i went to my piano and started playing...

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home.

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed its knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
Held on as tightly as you held onto me
Held on as tightly as you held onto me......

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Knock! Knock! Knock!, someone was at my bedroom door. "Come in!" i said, when i got up this morning i put on some joggy's an a white t-shirt my hair was up and i had my glasses on, i walked over to my desk and got my coffee. The door opened to reveal Mads" h-hey!" she said staring at me, i looked at my phone and it was 6:15 " jeez is it  that time....already?" i asked and she nodded, she was still staring at me" hello?" i said to her, she snapped out of her daze and smiled at me " sorry, couldn't help it!" i smiled, i walked over to her and put my mug down and my arms around her waist. She was wearing a denim dress and her coat was still on" sorry i forgot the time!" i said she smiled " so i could hear, i heard your song, we all did my mum and dad were talking to your mum in the lobby and we heard, their through in the living room now though!" she said and i smiled "what'd you think?" i asked, she put her arms around my neck " very, very good" she said, i leaned in and kissed her, i ran my tongue along her bottom lip and she gave me entrance, i pulled away " so, i need to get changed, would you like to stay?" i asked and she blushed " if you don't mind?" i kissed her " of course not!" i said and she smiled " welcome to my room!" i said with open arms and she laughed " any questions cos' when i brought the band up here it was twenty questions!" she laughed again, she nodded " wheres your wardrobe because i cant see it?" she asked and i smiled, my phone went off, it was from Jaz...

CALVIN HARRISS ON 109.9!!!!

Me and Jaz both shared a love for Calvin Harris!. I walked over to my radio and put it on, it was playing 'Under Control' " sorry its an obsession especially this song!" i said to Mads and she nodded " no, its good i like it to!" i smiled," okay now my wardrobe.... LONE FOOL!" i said and Mads laughed" sorry" i said in a funny voice " you sound like snape from Harry Potter!" i laughed " okay so my wardrobe is more a walk in closet!" i walked over to a door in my room and Mads followed, i pushed a button and the door slid open, in was all my Blazers in color order, my jeans in color order, my tops in color order, my hoodies in color order, my shoes were away and all my superhero stuff was there but in hero order. My jewelry mainly consisted of watches i had about ten and my necklaces were mainly hero. I turned to Mads who was looking round with a smile on her face. The song on the radio changed to 'Without you'. I had socks on and my floor in my closet was tile, i slid along to the end and faced Mads who was leaning against the frame " so what'd you think, question answered?" she laughed and nodded " yup, question answered but i have one more, why is all you black stuff together when your other clothes are together and in color order?" she asked, i kind of knew what she meant all my black hoodies and tops plus trousers were all together where as all my hoodies are together and trousers are together. " when i get angry i wear black because i find it depressing and not happy so when im angry i wear it and i just kind of keep it together" she nodded "is that what Mike was talking about with you last night?" i walked over to her" yeh come on i'll tell you it all now!" she smiled and nodded, i took her hand and sat her on my bed, i lay down and brought her in my arms " okay so after the incident with my dad and the gun my mum moved us all here, to California and we stayed with my Gran and Grandpa" she nodded " when my Gran got ill we moved out and got a house and two months later my Gran died of cancer, that same month my Grandpa died supposedly of old age but in my opinion it was a broken heart." i paused because i didn't want to cry, i kissed the top of her head and she gave me squeeze" so when my Grandpa died my mum inherited all the money but my mum was finding it hard with the grief and the fact my dad was escaping prison alot at the time so she took to alcohol, you know that one night i called the police because it got bad and we were put in care." she nodded" we were put into a care home called 'Sunny Village'. When we first got there i talked to no one because i blamed myself for putting me and my brother there because if i hadn't told my family i was gay i would still be in London and with my family and my mum wouldn't be and alcoholic and my dad wouldn't be in prison." i looked at her and she was looking at me, i smiled and she smiled back " One night i couldn't sleep because i kept thinking all the what if's and i got really angry and cut myself, it released well i thought it released my anger, so every time i got angry i would cut but one day my social worker came for a check up on us and she noticed my wrist she had a word with me about it and i broke down and told her everything from the day i told my parents when she found out everything my mum was then put on the six month trial, at the same time my social worker would take me to a councilor on the condition she wouldn't tell Mike, i didn't want her to tell him or my brother because i didn't want to worry them she agreed and I've been fine since, when i talked to my mum the first time i told her what happened that night i called the police and that i cut myself and how Gina helped, i told her i had cut when my brother was in the toilet. A few months later we bought this place and have lived here since but now every time i get angry i take it out in my running or my rowing even my music that's how i got to the A' team in rowing and im in track team because of my anger." i looked at Mads and she had a tear in her eye, i wiped it away and she kissed my hand, i smiled" i don't want you to be scared of my dad, i could never tell people about my dad encase they ran away from me and never got close to me because of the danger it would put them in but i don't want you to be scared because i will do my best to protect you and i really mean that and i want you to know that!" i said in a serious tone, i looked at Mads and she had a smile on her face " im not scared and no one else should be either, no one's perfect and no one's family's perfect either, i like you for you no matter what happened in the past and think about it this way if you hadn't told your family you were gay then you wouldn't have met me and i wouldn't have met you, and that's something im really thankful for!" she said with a smile on her face, i leaned in an kissed her pastionitley." thank you!" i said, she looked at me " for what?" she asked " well for one for not being scared and listening to what happened" i said and she smiled " and for being you!" she smiled " always" i kissed her again.