For The Love of Music

Chapter 5

It was Thursday and today was one of my quiet days exept for band practise. It was now break and me and Jaz were of to the shop because Jaz and i needed food for our economics class, we walked into the shop and got the things we needed and i got and energy drink "nuh-uh, your not getting that!" Jaz said with a stern tone to her voice." aww what" she shook her head" you go crazy with that you act like a five year old on drugs!" she said while grabbing it of my hand and putting it back, she walked away and paid for her stuff, i grabbed the drink and paid for everything Jaz was waiting outside for me and we walked back to school, i brought my drink out and Jaz noticed it instantly " oh my god! really Gem!" she said " hey! its my money and maybe i wanted to be hyper today!" she shook her head " god now i have to babysit you all day!" i just laughed while taking a drink out of my can. We got back to school and the bell rang, we had music. We walked in and there was only three people there not inclueding Miss T' " welcome to the dark side!" i shouted while walking in, i looked at Jaz and she shook her head, she walked over to Miss T's desk " i would like to appoligize for my friend before hand she had an energy drink and is acting like a five year old on drugs!" she said while pointing to me, i was over at Mark who had just arrived and i was poking his dimples, Miss T' looked over at us and was trying not to laugh" okay thanks Jaz!" she said. Jaz came over and sat down beside me " now behave!" she said seriously and i poked her ribs, she shook her head at me. The rest of the class came in and Miss T' started our lesson, i was tapping my pen of the desk but was interupted" Gemma thats a good beat but could you stop please?" Miss T' asked, i smilled at her and put my pen down, she continued with the lesson, we were to write a song about anything we wanted, i had to think abit when my dad came into mind and how he thought me being gay was bad, some lyrics came to mind and i started to write a song......

Well, I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge
I'm telling you that, it's never that bad
Take it from someone who's been where you're at
Laid out on the floor
And you're not sure you can take this anymore

So just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
'Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night
Stop thinking about the easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done
You're far too young
And the best is yet to come

So just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Well, everybody's hit the bottom
Everybody's been forgotten
When everybody's tired of being alone
Yeah, everybody's been abandoned
And left a little empty handed
So if you're out there barely hanging on...

Just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

I had finished writting and i noticed Jaz was looing at my book over my shoulder, i moved it closer to her and she took it in her hands and started reading it. When she was done she looked at me " this is about your dad isn't it?" i looked down " yeh, yeh it is" she rapped me in a hug " dont worry, its okay" she said and i laughed " thanks" the bell rang and i had my lesson with Miss T' , everyone left and it was just me and her, she was at her desk looking at the songs everyone handed in, she looked up at me and smiled i had my song in my hand, i gave it to her and she looked at it