With Or Without

Chapter 3

The Phone Call Ended After About A Minute As He Just Checked Up On Me. I Didn't Mention My Proposal And Neither Did He. I'd Say We Were Back To Normal And To Be Honest I Didn't Mind.

He Came Over A Few Days Later And All We Did Was Watch A Movie Until It Was Time For Him To Leave He Came Extremely Close To My Face. There I Was Confused And Nervous. I Knew What Would Happen Next But I Kept Staring In His Eyes Waiting For Him To Make A Move. And After Staring In Each Other's Eyes For A Moment He Softly Pecked My Lips. I Then Attempted To Walk Away, Because I Just Knew He Didn't Leave Her. But He Grabbed My Arm And Pulled Me In By My Waist And Kissed Me Again But This Time I Kissed Him Back. Now This May Be The Biggest Mistake I've Made Yet But I Did It.

We Spent The Next 6 Minutes Embracing Each Other; Him Caressing My Hair And Me Rubbing My Hands Against His Back. Then Suddenly I Hear A Door Open. We Separate Ourselves As My Brother Jeremy Walks In The Living Room. Him And Justin Exchanged Hellos And He Pats Me On The Shoulder, Then Goes Directly To His Room.

Jeremy Was A Calm And Humble Individual Who Didn't Cause A Big Deal Out Of Any Circumstance.

"I'm Gonna Leave Now" Justin Speaks And Ends My Chain Of Thoughts.

"Huh, OK" I Said With A Smile On My Face.

He Slowly Walks Away But I Stopped Him By Whispering

"Justin?"

"Yes Jade?"

"Good Night" I Softly Said.

"Good Night" He Smiles And Slides The Door Open.

He Stepped Out Of The House And I Closed The Door Behind Him.

For The Next 2 Weeks
Justin And I Texted Occasionally. We Spoke About Every Thing Except The Question Lurking In My Mind..
Whenever We Saw Each Other We'd Keep Distance Between Us Because We Both Knew What The Situation Was.

Tracey And I Went Shopping And I Bought A Mini Skirt And Three Shirts Of Different Colours.
Tracey Was My Friend From The Beginning Of High School. She Was Friendly And Helpful And She Stuck Around. She Was Shorter Than I Was And Also A Bit Thinner But That Didn't Affect Our Friendship Or The Fact That We Were Interested In The Same Styles In Fashion And Clothing.

I Was Reminded By My Mother (Who Was Cooking Beef Balls) About The Annual Funfest That Was Only A Week Away. I Decided To Wear  The Mini Skirt Or A Ripped Jeans And One Of My New Shirts.  I Already Had A Converse In Every Colour So Shoes Was No Big Deal For Me.

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It Has Been Five Days Since I Last Saw Just And Six Days Since I Was Reminded About The Funday.

I Had Asked Justin If He Was Going To Funfest And He Said Yes. But The Question Really On My Mind Was 'Was He Taking Kate?"

'I'm Going To Ask Him' I Thought To Myself. I Was Hoping He'd Pick Up The Phone And That He Would Answer Me Honestly, But This Happened.

He Picked Up The Phone After The Second Ring.

"Hello"

"Hi Jade"

"How Have You Been?" Damn This Wasn't What I Planned.

"I've Been Well" Isn't He Going To Ask Me Back?
Ten Seconds Passed By After He Said That. So I Spoke

"Huh, Uhmm.. I Wanted To Ask You If Urr.."

"Jade I'm Downstairs, Let Me In" What Downstairs? I Hung Up. My Mind Ran Wild As I Got More Nervous.
Why Was He Downstairs? What Could He Possibly Want? Why Was He Here?

*Boom Boom*
I Jumped Out Of My Chain If Thoughts As The Front Door Was Being Knocked Very Loudly.

I Ran Down The Stairs And To The Door. I Unlocked It And Walked Back To The Stairs But I Didn't Step Up.
He Came In Looking Directly In  My Eyes.
" Hi" He Spake
I Nodded  And Walked Up The Stairs Knowing He'd Follow Me.

I Walked Into My Room And Sat On My Bed He Came And Stood At The Door.

I Couldn't Bear Not Knowing Anymore, So I Asked.
"Are You And Kate Still Together?"
He Sighed And I Knew The Answer "Yes Jade, We Are. We Have Been Through So Much Together And"

"So You're Taking Her To Funfest?" I Interrupted Him.
He Looked Me In The Eyes For The Second Time Tonight And Walk Toward Me. What Was He Doing?

He Knelt Down Between My Legs Holding My Waist And Kissed Me On The Cheek.
Why Was I Doing This To Myself? I Felt Like The Other Woman In A Movie Whose Desire Was For Her (Married) Lover To Choose Her And File For Divorce.

He Kissed Me Closer To My Lips And I Smiled, Feeling As Though I Was Loved And Appreciated. Maybe I Was Being Tricked But I Was Going To Allow It For Today.

I Pulled Him Toward Me While I Laid Myself Down On The Bed And Pecked His Lips Twice. While He Was About To Meet My Lips For The Third I Asked Again
"Are You?"
He Looked Extremely Guilty But That Wasn't Enough. I Wanted To Hear Him Say It.
He Kissed My Lips Deeply This Time And I Allowed Him. Or Maybe I Had No Choice.
A Thought Rose Up In My Mind ' Take Control And Get Your Answer, Then Leave Him Hanging'.

I Made A Mental Note That I Would Do That As Soon As I We Broke Apart.

This Kiss Lasted So Much Longer  Than I Expected But I Was Enjoying The Moment As I Knew What Was Going To Happen Next.

As Soon As We Broke Apart I Flipped The Script And Also Our Positions. He Wasn't Aware I Was Going To Do It So It Was Easier Than I Thought.

I Pecked His Lips Again And Sat Up Feeling His Erection Pressing Against Me. He Looked So Desperate.
I Looked In His Eyes And He Responded
"Yes I Am, I'm Taking Her" Followed By A Sigh.

I Was Disappointed But He Was In A Certain Mood And So Was I. What Should I Do Now?