With Or Without

Chapter 4

I Bit His Lip And I Could Hear Him Moaning Against My Mouth.

I Knew I Had To Stop Because If I Didn't I'd Regret My Actions. But He Did Something That Change My Entire Plan. Stopping Soon Became No Option And All Was Left To Do Was Go With The Flow.

He Flipped Us Over Once Again So He Was On Top. He Caressed My Face And His Hand Moved Slowly To My Breast While Our Lips Were In Unison. Our Breathing Got Heavier And A Little More Frequent.

It Was A Few Minutes Later That I Realised I Was Tugging On Justin's Shirt And He Soon Took It Off And Rejoined Me In A Passionate Kiss, Making Me Feel As If I Would Be With Justin Whether He Was With Kate Or Not.

He Kissed My Neck While I Tried To Pull My Shirt Up. He Stopped And Pulled It Over My Head Throwing It Unto The Floor.

His Kisses Lingered Along My Neck And My Chest. I Moaned While His Lips Found Their Way Back To My Mouth And That's When It Came Back To Me.

He Hasn't Left Kate And He Was Taking Her To Funfest Tomorrow.  Therefore, Having Sex With My Best friend Who Was In A Relationship Was Not An Option And I Needed To Accept That.

I Stopped When He Was Trying To Detach My Bra. I Needed To Draw The Line Before We Passed The Limit.
I Was A Virgin And As Much As I Would Have Wanted Justin To Be My First, I Didn't Want It To Be While He Was Dating Kate Or Any Other Girl For That Matter.

These Thoughts Took Over My Body And Soon I Found Myself Resisting His Kisses And Pushing Him Away From Me.

"Justin, Please Stop" He Looked Me In The Eyes And Jumped Up, Sitting Next To Me On The Bed.

I Thought To Myself 'Good Boy'. He Respected My Wishes.

"Huh, I'm Sorry. I Shouldn't Have"
I Smiled At Him And Shook My Head
" It's OK " I Assured Him 'I Was Equally At Fault'

"Are You Hungry?" I Changed The Subject While I Got Up Scanning The Floor For My Shirt. I Spotted It In The Corner. I Looked And It Then At Justin Who Was Dying Of Laughter.

"Sorry" He Smiled. "And Yes I Am Hungry"

I Walked Over To My Shirt Picked It Up And Started Putting It On. While Asking "Do You Want To Cook?  Or Do You Want To Order Pizza?"

We Decided On A Pizza And Waited About 30 Minutes For The Delivery To Be Made And While I Collected It Justin Went To The Kitchen And Got Two Sodas.

We Watched A Movie And Fell Asleep. I Heard A Voice Calling My Name. I Opened Choose I Was Scooped Up And Held On To Justin's Chest While He Brought Me Up The Stairs And In My Room. He Gently Placed Me On The Bed And By Then My Eyes Were Closed Again. He Pecked My Lips And Whispered "Good Night Baby."

I Wanted To Blush But I Didn't I Held My Composure And Simply Nodded Turning My Back To Him And I Don't Know When I Fell Asleep.

I Woke Up With The Smell Of Eggs. I Tossed And Turned For A While Then I Got Up. I Was Curious. Who Was Making Breakfast? I Got Up.

I Tip Toed Down The Stairs And Peeped Around The Corner. Justin. He Was Sharing What He Made Into A Plate. Was I Going To Get Breakfast In Bed? I Ran Upstairs And Laid In Bed.

I Pretended I Was Asleep When I Heard Footsteps Emerging. I Blushed A Little When Justin Stood Looking Down At Me. I Could Feel His Eyes. I Hid My Face And Soon Heard Him Speak.

"You're So Beautiful" Damn. My Face Lit Up. I Was Smiling As If I Just Won A Grammy Award.

"Thanks" I Couldn't Allow Myself To Say More Than One Word At A Time. If I Did He'd Know How Happy I Was To Hear That And Soon We Would Be At It Again.

He Was Handing Me The Tray With My Very Well Prepared Breakfast When His Phone Rang On The Bed Side Table And I Took It Up And Checked The Caller Id. Kate. Wow. Way To Go Kate.

Her Timing Was Perfect.

"Ya I'm On My Way" Those Words Brought Me Back Fro My Chain Of Thoughts.

He Leaving. "You're Leaving?" I Didn't Seem To Be Able To Keep Much Of My Thoughts To Myself Anymore.

"Yea I'm Going To Take Kate To The Store To Get Some Stuff For Funfest Tomorrow"

"Okay" I Sigh. Taking In A Fork Of Scrambled Eggs.

"Yea Don't Be Sad, I'll Be Back Later.
Laters Baby"

"Later" I Smiled And He Kissed My Forehead And Walked Out Of Tue Room. Placing His Phone In His Pocket.

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Today Was Funfest And I Just Knew We Would Go Back To Normal When We Were Around Kate.

I Decided I Wasn't Going To Go Early. The Later I Went Is The Less Time I'd Have To Spend Where Kate Was. Even Though I Wasn't Planning On Talking To Her At All.

Tracey Had Called Me About 8 Minutes Ago. She Would Be Ready By 1, But It Was Now 1 And I Was Ready. I Had Nothing To Do. I Drove There And Would Pick Tracey Up At 1.

Justin Had Been Texting Me About Out Last Meeting All Morning And I Was Delighted. I Responded With Enthusiasm And We Had Been Laughing All More.

I Walked Into The Park And I Knew Exactly Where To Find Justin. I Walked Over To Him And We Spoke. We Were Acting As If We Were 'Just Best Friends' When We Both Know There Was More.

I Spend Half An Hour With Him And As Soon As I Reached The Gate Heading Back To The Car To Go Pick Tracey Up, I Heard My Name Being Called Very Loudly. It Was Kate.

"Hey" I Said.

"Hi, Have You Seen Justin?" No I Haven't. I Didn't Want Her To Know That I Knew.
"No. Why Don't You Call Him?" Didn't She Have A Phone?
"I Left My Phone And I Need Him To Take Me To Get It At Home, Can I Borrow Yours?"

'Hell No. You Cannot.'That'd What I Thought But I Wasn't That Mean In Real Life.
"Sure" I Took It From The Pocket Of My Jeans, Unlocked And Handed It To Her.

As Soon As She Took It From My Hands A Message Came In. And I Remembered That My Phone Has That Pop- Up Feature. Oh Shit!.

She Read The Message, Made The Call. I Didn't Hear Her Much As My Mind Was Occupied With What The Message Said And Who It Was From.

She Handed The Phone Back And To Me, Thanked Me And Walked Onto The Park.

I Opened The Message
* You Look So Beautiful, I Should Have Kissed You. I Love You Jade.

Holy Shit!! We Are In So Much Trouble.