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A/n-Why I Have Not Written

Hello!
So....
Let me just begin by saying I still read every comment look at how many people read this and every time I do it really makes me feel an overwhelming feeling of love. I can't thank you guys enough. When I started writing this thing I didn't think anyone would read it and it was just fun for me to do. The fact that I now have 87K reads and all of these wonderful comments and votes is something that I could never ever thank you guys enough for.

But there's something wrong.
I haven't written for a couple of months, as you might have noticed. Not even one word is in my editing section. After about a year of writing this I realized that it was getting harder and harder to come up with new stories. Although people were sending me ideas, none of them appealed to me enough for me to make them interesting enough for my reading. If that even makes sense. I know it sounds kind of inconsiderate to ignore requests, and I know it is. However, I'm the kind of person that can only do fulfilling work when I'm completely into the idea of it. Unfortunately I wasn't getting that vibe from my requests.

Long story short, I got bored of what I was writing. I love this thing like a child and I think it has definitely benefited my life in a bunch of different ways. It's made me proud of myself and has given me a major boost of confidence that I didn't have before.

There have been things in my life that have had a toll on me in the last two years. My dog (best friend) passed away in April of 2016. About a week later my mom left my dad and moved two towns away, making it hard to see her. From that, my family, which was already fucked up before that, was now officially broken and I fell into depression. My dad fell even deeper and considered choosing suicide as an option. Although he didn't (thank god), when I found out, I fell even deeper. A little later on, I was feeling better and then I met my ex (who was not an ex when I met him sorry if that's misleading lmao). Our relationship seemed perfect at first, and it was. But it soon turned into an abusive relationship. Although we ended things, he still continued to talk to me for months following the break up, leading to my increase in anxiety and stress. LONG STORY SHORT I HAD A BAD YEAR IN 2016.

The fact that this story has so many amazing people reading is one of the things that got me through that rough time. And I'm so glad to have that to remember. I'm completely happy within myself now and I feel like I can actually have a good year this year.

I don't want this to end. But it has to for now. I don't think I'm ready to have an extra thing on my shoulders quite yet. I don't know if I will be back to writing in it more. BUT, I am definitely going to be posting some rough drafts that I have from before that I will edit and post. After them, however, I don't know if I will write more for the twenty one pilots imagines.

I know some of you will be sad by this announcement and for that I sincerely apologize. But just remember that you helped me get through something I didn't think I could get through.

If any of you ever need someone to talk to, although you don't know me, you can talk to me. I know what it feels like to want to talk to someone but can't tell anyone because you feel like it will hurt someone. I  made a mistake by not saying how I felt and I won't make it again. So once again if you need me, I'm here.

Stay alive.

|-/::::love