thoughts of the brokenhearted

i didn't

i didn't write this myself but it's perfect

Maybe I was wrong for trusting you with my whole heart and offering you my entire being. Maybe I was wrong for wanting you to stay in my life forever. This may be “temporary”, but the pain of not knowing what will happen is killing me. I wish I could see how you are feeling about this break – if you are as broken hearted and sad as I am. Probably not, but I cannot be sure.

I lie awake at night, wondering what I could have done differently…what I could have said to you that would make you want to stay. Maybe I scared you away or made you feel trapped. I honestly do not know; you have left me in the dark for the most part.

I thought you were “the one”, but maybe you are not. Maybe I am just naïve for thinking you would want to marry and spend the rest of your life with an emotional and insecure girl like me.

I wish you knew how difficult this is on me, but I do not want to burden you. I do not want to bother you with my selfish wishes, and I certainly do not want to beg to have things back the way they used to be.

I guess I should have known this would happen. You are a free spirit, and always have been. I was wrong to keep you close by my side.

Lastly: to be perfectly honest, if this does not turn out the way I hope for it to, I will be giving up on love for a while. At least until I have some semblance of hope in my life once again.