Through the Dark // AmazingPhil & Danisnotonfire

Chapter Six

Never Forget (part six)

*DANS POV*

They have been gone for over half an hour. I really hope every thing is ok. Maybe I should check on them to make sure they are still alive. I decide to get off my fat ass and check on them.

I open the door to Phil's room to find Phil and Ellie asleep together and Phil's sweatshirt in the floor. Look again Dan! Phil's sweatshirt is covered in fucking blood! God damn it Phil! Phil was cutting again, and it was all my fault. My fault that I even decided to do the dare, my fault that I made out with her, instead of a little peck on the cheek.

I stormed out of the room pissed at myself, pissed at Phil. I slam the door and run to my room. Locking the door behind me I sat on my bed with my head in my hands. Again. Phil had cut again. He swore to never do it again when he cut a few years ago. Back in uni. He was bullied a lot, and one day when I came back from a class I found Phil on the floor of the bathroom with a knife and blood every where.

I throw a pillow at the door when I hear someone knock on the door. "Dan! I need to talk to you!" Ellie shouted. "Go away!" I shout, I don't need to talk to anyone right now. "Please Dan! Let me in!" She shouted again. I love her voice. Even thou she's shouting at me, it's still beautiful. I drag myself to the door and unlock it. "What?" I snap a little harsher then I intended. "It's my fault." She says after I let her in. "Your fault? You best be joking." I say and look down at the ground. "It's my fault. I was the one who did the dare, I was the one who was making out with you, it was my idea." I continue. "I could have stopped you." Ellie says. "But yet you didn't." I respond.

After a few minutes of silence
I say, "Why were you sleeping with him?" "Dan he wanted me to snuggle with him." She responds. "He won't talk to me. Seriously all he said was snuggle with me? And that was it."
I don't know why I'm mad. I'm just afraid. Afraid that I won't be able to have her. I mean she obviously can't decide between me phil and Pj. Her phone rings from her pocket and she answers it. "Hello? Pj?" She says into the phone and leaves the room.

*PHILS POV*

Dan is seriously going to shout the crap out of me. I remember the night he came back to our dorm after classes. I was laying in the bathroom with my knife, and blood everywhere. I had a black eye, and bruises everywhere. I had been walking home from my last class when those boys started to tease me. I ignored them, until one of them threw a punch at my jaw. I fell to the ground and they kept punching and kicking me. "Die emo fag!" was just one of the things they said. Luckily some random kid broke up the fight. I think it was one of their friends or something. When I got back to the dorm I cut, more than I had ever before. I just wanted to die. I didn't want to be physically hurt any more. Dan had come home a little later than me, and lucky enough just in time. He was so mad at me, making me swear to his I would never cut again. That was years ago, and here I am today. I don't know why the idea of my crush dating my best friend was to much for me to handle. I just loved Ellie thou. And it seems like every one does. Me, Dan, Pj. Ugh why can't she just chose me and stay with me. Snuggling with her was the best, only if I could do that everyday. Suddenly I heard Ellie's voice outside my door. I thought she was talking to herself until I noticed she was actually on the phone.
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Hey little lions! Hugs and roars! 😘Ellen