adore - tomlinson

chapter seven

depression is gone for now, but i have a feeling he'll be back, and i don't know why.

today ivy and i went to the park across the street from our coffee shop. i like calling it our coffee shop because whenever im there i feel like everything's a dream, and just breathing in the smell of coffee beans reminds me of her pretty face. one day i'll own that place, and ivy and i will be in love.

i told her that, too. she believed me, too.

she lets me hold her hand as we walk, my finger tips grazing her palms and my thumb plucking at her knuckles nervously. i think im getting better at talking to ivy, but sometimes i feel this knot in me that pulls tighter everytime she speaks.

im a taller than her, so i look at the top of her head often as we walk. i like this because she probably has one of the prettiest heads in the world. but even better than that, is her face.

she's close to me, so close that our sides touch. i want to kiss her so badly, and i've felt that way ever since i saw her, which was a two weeks ago. i had gone a week without ivy, and that seven day span was the worse i went through, but now i feel like it just built up to where we are now, and how much i've adored her.

"louis, how much do you love me, really? say it, come on."

"well, that's a dumb question to ask."

"why?"

"because if i had to say how much i loved you, you would already be gone by the time i finished.

and i really don't want you to leave me, ever."

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WHAT. WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE LOUIS OK LIKE BYE. ✌