Highschool (A Nicki Minaj Fan-fiction)

I just can't

Nicki's POV:

I woke up in the middle of the night so many times and stayed up most the night. If Wayne woke up it was to comfort me but I can't be comforted. I feel so horrible anyways. While me and Wayne were, I guess, fooling around we didn't notice all the warnings and signs and messages and missed out on something important. I lost someone important to me and I can't help but feel guilty. Everyone wanted to meet up with Tyga's parents and discuss the last of him....it sounds bad saying that. I got dressed and left out the house with Wayne. I just put on something simple. I covered up with a jacket and glasses.

When we got to Tyga's house his family and friends were there. Wayne escorted me inside and his parents were sitting down letting everyone give them closure. They stood when they seen me. I tried to put on a smile but couldn't. I left the house to the backyard with Tyga's mom.

"How you holding up Nicki?"

"Not much".

"I know, I was angry to know about the.... You know." She said.

"He didn't deserve it!" I said getting angry.

"I miss him" she said.

"I do too." I said.

"He wanted me to give you all of the memories y'all had together of eachother. From the beginning to...end." She said about to cry because I heard the crack in her voice. "Their up in his room" she said leaving before her tears escaped. I felt horrible. I left off ignoring everyone and went into Tyga's room. All our things were on his bed. I sat down taking in his room. I remember how mad he was that he moving father away from everyone. Chyna said how much she would always love him no matter how far they stayed away from eachother. I looked at his dresser and there was silly pictures of everyone with him from all our school years. I seen one that me and him took in second grade. It was from after a play and his mom couldn't resist taking a picture. That was around the time Chyna started getting jealous of me and his friendship cuz she thought we were something more. But she soon started to see how we were only that.

I looked at the stuff we had together but I can't get myself to go through it right now. I then heard crying and Chyna burst into the room slamming the door. I flinched back a bit scared.

"Oh sorry Nicki" she said wiping off her face.

"It's fine. You still upset huh?"

"I wish it was me and not him! I miss him so much. His voice, how he smelled and looked. Him even being around. He was my life." She plopped down on the bed. "I love him". I pulled a sobbing Chyna into my arms.

"I do too". She then sniffed and sat up.

"I can't do this Nicki."

"Do what?" I asked.

"You just don't know how everything happened that night." She said. "I tried to control it but it didn't work!"

"Chyna what are you talking about?" I asked.

"I made him mad! He was driving me home but he was drunk and I didn't want him to drive. But he was too out of control for me so I let him. While he was driving he kept speeding and I tried to tell him to stop but he didn't. And he kept yelling at me and then he just glanced off the road for a second then...." She started crying harder and I felt a sharp pain in my heart. I closed my mouth. "It's my fault Nicki. I knew better! I could of done something!" She yelled.

"Gosh we were both so dumb" she whispered disappointed like.

"Chyna it wasn't your fault, and yes you could of but it happened and I can't like everyone else but stay strong. At least you got to see him and talk to him before anyone else did. I didn't even get to say bye or hear his voice last." I said standing up mad. " so don't come to me saying that. He may of been dumb but you could of been smart for him!" I said walking out. That may sound harsh but I can't be around anyone at a time like this.