Red: The Reckoning

Chapter 9 : lost in the grey.

In her darkest dreams, in the moments she never wanted to see again, Rhemiel stood a the edge of her mind, wanting to let all the pain and sadness burn she could you know, burn it all, start over, be happy but no, she looked in to the darkness, and watched the dark figure rise from the abyss, he  was lost in the grey, in the dark, but every so often he would come from the darkness of her mind, and remind her, '' Raphael'' he looked like death,  '' death is just so final, don't you agree?'' he spoke with an emptiness almost cold, he looked at her like he hated her '' you said you would never come back  out'' ''and you were meant to love me, see how we lie''  '' I did just not how you wanted me too'' '' silly, stupid angel'' '' don't''  ''you know how this works, I come out of the darkness, when you want to be punished, reminded of what you've done, I'm dead because I was so in love, what a joke, Rhemiel the great pretended and all this time you were falling in love with a half bread, half angel, half demon that's sick'' ''stop this'' ''no, your doing this, you dragged me up from the dark,  from the grey and I cant go back till your broken, bleeding and almost dead'' ''I'm sorry'' ''shut up and just vanish'' ''Raphael, please return to the darkness, to the grey'' '' great you said please'' he walked backwards and slipped in to the darkness once more, Rhemiel woke covered in dark ash, she got straight at up and had a shower, while in the shower she notice black blood dripping down the wall, and a dark hand came few the shower wall and grabbed  her neck and started to strangle her, then the rest of a dark Raphael emerged and with both hands strangled harder he then dragged her out few the shower door breaking the glass, he smashed few the wall and held her down '' broken and bloody'' he hissed then was gone she woke, she had marks on her neck, and was bleeding, her sheets were covered, she got up slowly and walked in to the bath room the shower was destroyed, ''Michael'' she yelled he came running in Ariel followed ''oh god, what? happened?'' she asked looked at the bathroom and at Rhemiel, '' I don't know?'' she said as she fell to the floor.

she woke on the couch Recce slept in the arm chair she sat up '' don't even'' he said with his eyes closed, ''your awake?'' ''resting, what the hell happened red? the truth'' ''Raphael'' ''excuses me?'' ''in my mind there's the darkest, deepest part, where I keep the'' '' the hurt and the pain'' ''yes'' ''and you have a dark Raphael in there?'' '' yes'' ''and he wants to kill you?'' ''no just punish me for his death'' ''oh red, that's messed up''  '' I know'' he pulled her in to his chest and she started to cry, he kissed the top of her head '' so red, how do we fix this?'' '' you can't'' ''oh baby, I'm gona try, I'll spend forever trying to fix you'' ''recce ( she pushed him away and stood up her body was banged again ) no, you can't say stuff like that when you don't lo'' '' don't what?'' '' nothing'' ''red'' he stood up and faced her, she looked away'' ''if only'' he left the room and she sat back down, Ariel walked in and sat next to her and slapped her in the back of the head, '' hey'' ''Rhemiel, your so stupid, tell him'' ''I don't think telling recce how I fell will change a thing'' ''what if I was too, would you?'' ''what?'' ''I lost Jo, and I still love her, so for you to be in love with recce and not say anything, your losing, every second you deny your self of love is stupid, you need to tell him before its too late'' ''Ariel I cant'' ''why? not'' '' because I can't watch him die, because everyone who I love or care about is dead, look at Jo, Gabriel, castiel, rose the others, they are dead'' ''it's not your fault'' ''why? does it fell like it is'' ''Rhemiel forgive your self, then forgive recce and let your self love him'' Ariel got up and walked out of the room, was Ariel right, should she forgive her self, forgive recce before it was to late, she need to find a church.

she stood at the remains of  a small church she walked in and stood at the front, ''hi it's me your daughter, I need help, I need to forgive my self, but I don't know how to ( just then a bright light filled the space ) what?'' Raphael stood in front of her in all white '' hi''  he said with a wave' 'how?'' ''come on he's always listening, he sent you what you need, he sent Michael Gabriel, so  here  i'am  to talk'' '' this is insane'' ''yes, well we don't have long'' ''how long'' ''not long'' ''I'm so sorry'' ''I  never blamed you, I never blamed recce , it was what it was, Rhemiel, I died to save you so stop beating your self up over it!  I'm fine, I'm happy, because you finally found love'' ''but your dead, Gabriel is dead'' ''she's happy also, please forgive your self or loving you was a waste, loving him will be a waste'' '' I miss you, my dear friend'' '' I miss you too, but that's okay'' '' I'm afraid'' '' yeah I know, but don't be, your amazing and beautiful and strong and smart, you know what to do so do it" '' what if I fail?'' ''oh what if you fail, fail again, fail better'' '' Raphael'' ''yes'' ''what's?'' ''heaven like now?'' ''restored'' '' good'' she smiled ''Rhemiel, one more thing'' ''yes'' ''you can come home..... but it will cost you something great'' ''what?'' ''when it's time, you can return alive whole, to heaven but a sacrifice must be made'' '' of what?'' ''it will be determined when it's time'' ''right'' ''Rhemiel'' ''yes'' ''one more thing'' ''yeah'' 'don't be afraid of love you always were'' he said as he gave her a small kiss on her check then vanished and she was alone in the church.