As much as you want to keep him off your mind, you can't. Especially with being back home, knowing that if you are out anywhere you could see him. You want to see him. But you would hide if you did. As much as you want to see him, you dont want him to see you. Even though you know he won't notice, and he wont care, you know that you are not in good shape and you can't help but want to hide that from all of your old friends, especially him. He can't know how terrible you're doing without him, away from home. You know that of he found out he would only make you feel worse, make you feel weak. He's a real asshole sometimes, so that's why it's so confusing to you why you love him. You want nothing more than to give him a hug. And for some reason you feel the need to apologize to him. You know you've screwed up in the past, and even though its the past, you can't help but dwell on it. That's why you're so scared to say anything to him....you can't lose him again. Not again. The first time was enough to know that it's hard to live your life without him. I love you (he shall remain nameless....but if he's reading this, I think he know who he is....)
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Everything Wrong With Me: A Series Of Short Pieces About My Life And Struggles
No FicciónEach chapter is a small peice of writing telling about depressing things that have happened to me that i cant seem to clear from my head. Enjoy!
