Thoughts at night

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Endless nights, sleepless days

scared of getting bad grades

sleeping more hours is a pill to me

I overdose and overdose but I am still alive

I thought oversleeping can be my drug 

sometimes I try to fight it but always make me weary

it's like 2 am and I have no strength or dignity to stay strong

sleeping is a drug that hides my sadness

the hurt, the anger, and sadness consumes me 

I don't know what I become into my own monster

and I cry because I don't know what I became 

I try to cover up my sober because I don't want to be vulnerable

so I just keep inside my emotions until I don't want them to build up

I just wants to drown the other me into a tub full of water 

but if I do this, I would kill the pure part of me, 

I just leave it alone, until  I am raging and worn apart

I pick up the pieces of what remains of me.  


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