In my class there was none of my friends, the classes where Becca was not with me were really really boring, i had to deal with the fcking bitches that surrounded me.
"Oh my God! Wow!" "She's a weirdo" "Did you hear what he did?" "Omg that outfit is gross!" was everything i heard all class long.
When the teacher asked us to make teams i didnt know what to do, i pretended i didnt hear her and i went to her
me- umm teacher i have no team, can i do the work alone?
teacher- no! why would you do it alone?! its better in a team, you can help each other
well i disagree with that, maybe because im a loner and because every friend i've had has let me down
me- well...
teacher: Guys! guys ! pay attention! are your groups ready? we have someone with no team over here! who wants to have her?
the classroon stayed quiet and everyone looked at me. nobody said a word. the teacher looked at me in a way of sadness and i shrugged and she smiled, she looked at every group to see which one had few members and finally she pointed some all-guys-team
teacher- guys over there! this girl- she looked at me and said quietly - whats your name honey?
me- sam
teacher- sam is going to be in your team okay?
i knew the 4 guys of my new team, i know they know who they are but i dont know why they dont like me that much, ive talked with each one of them and when we see in the hallways they pretend they didnt see me and keep walking without looking at me. pretty weird guys
when the teacher said i was going to be in their group they looked at each other and frowned. i felt like an alien and looked at the teacher to see if she had seen that and if she could change me but she didnt she was doing some stuff in her computer and i said to myself it was all in my mind, that it was going to be a cool group and nothing bad was going to happen
i went over to my new AMAZING team and sat down in a chair that was near them
me- hey guys
guys- hi sam
me- so what are we gonna do? -oh fuck why did i ask that, the teacher had not even said anything, i was kinda nervous and felt unwanted there
david- the teacher is about to say it
me- haha yes okay cool
they started playing and fooling around with each other and i was there looking at them, i took my cell phone and checked twitter and surprise surprise
Follow suggestions... Jake Ar
I wasn't going to follow him obviously but some stalking wouldnt be a bad idea...
"The truth is i love you" me? clare? his mom? "i fucking hate this" what was he hating? who was he hating? did he hate me? "shit happens to stupid people" yeah that's true but what shit has happened? whats going on? "Letters C and S are making me crazy" okay this is completely obvious, clare and sam...
Okay, stalking him was a good and a bad idea, now i know he loves someone, but i have to know who... me or clare..or was there someone else?
The bell rang and i stood up quickly, i didn't even look at my team, they did all the work while i was busy reading Jake's tweets LOL
The teacher called me .. shit -.-
teacher- sam, you didn't do anything, you didnt even help your team
me- i didnt notice what we were doing and they didnt ask me for help
teacher- well if youre in a team you should see in what you can help the ones in it okay? or is there another problem?
i thought about the faces they made when they knew i was going to be in their group
me- no, its fine. its cool, I'll help next class
teacher- thanks honey, and oh! keep the cell phone in your backpack okay? or do you want it to be in mine? - she smiled and then looked at her computer again
i frowned and walked away
while i was walking in the hallway i could notice some people around looking weird at me, was i doing something wrong? did i have cake in my face or something? i didnt know what was going on. yeah im used to be seen and being an easy topic to talk about but today everyone was weirder than days before.
I saw jake getting out of a classroom. i had this need.. the need to go hug him or something but then i remembered about clare and just stared at him, he looked so perfect, he was like usual, with a book in his hand
