start talking to him.
*check out the multimedia btw lol its funny i like gifs and it makes sense with this chapter(:
we got home and i turned the computer on. checked my notifications, my inbox and FRIEND REQUESTS. nothing at all. -.-
i stalked him <3 he has the same profile picture. he has it since march 2011. i know im a stalker but i cant help myself from checking his profile everyday
log out. this is boring.
tumblr is my salvation, things i want to have, girls i want to look like, boys id like to have, phrases i want to say, pics of couples, that ones make me feel like shit, pretty perfect couples cuddling and kissing makes me remember im forever alone, makes me remember HE won't ever like me, he wont ever even notice me at all
he has never liked a girl, hes not gay but hes not interested in anyone right now, hes waiting for his right girl. I'll be super jealous of her.
its kinda late so i'll better go to bed and finally arrive to my dreams. where i should live forever eventhough they have no sense i'd like to live inside my dreams.
...
*ipod's alarm beeping*
6:00 a.m i need to get ready for school, i'll see him today at recess, my friend Jenny promised she'll help me with him, she is girlfriend of Jake's best friend, Zac.
Zac doesn't even know I exist and Jake too, Jenny and i used to be bff before Virginia came and messed everything up (our full friendship).
I see them in recess talking, Jenny with Zac and Jake, they catch me watching them, but its kinda curious the 3 of them looked at me at the same time, that means they were talking about me.
After recess I asked Jenny about Jake, she frowned. :/
J- we were talking about you, and i think you noticed right?
Me- yeah, And...
J- well... Zac says you're weird, and Jake didnt care, he kept talking about going to see Paul McCartney
Me- oh, am I weird? well whatever, so... what are we going to do? i want jake to notice me
J- hmm... you can come with me tomorrow, so he'll see you better, closer
me- ok. deal. don't forget about me tomorrow. dont go without me okay?
j- deal. see you tomrrow. good luck buddy
i walked home alone thinking about how to impress jake the next day. i thought about wearing my new and favorite clothes, the shorts with the american flag and my beatles t-shirt, and my blue braided sandals. and i made my decision. I'll wear that and i'll make a braid in my hair.
the next day i was very nervous. I saw jenny and remembered her about the recess plan, she wished me luck while we were walking to the lockers where the boys were going to be, I saw both of them.
Zac smiled when he saw jenny and saw me too with a smile. I kept thinking why he called me weird. I havent even talked to him. I was looking at Jake while walking . he looked so good, with his gray sport pants and his white t-shirt, his black perfect hair looked so good today.
We stopped walking, my heart was beating fast. jake was infront of me, he was looking at jenny and then he looked at me and smiled, he looked me in the eyes for some seconds, they were years for me. jenny kinda pushed me and i reacted, i said hi to both of them. I kept feeling Zac's eye on me while we were talking, well, while they were talkking, i was shy at that moment, i was nervous, very nervous, Jake was quiet too.
