I was shocked. was this real. this moment. me making out and cuddling with jake arnolds?
i couldnt believe it and it was real.
i opened my laptop to check my messages and notifications and obiously friend requests, maybe he has already added me.
my mom knocked my door and before i could answer she opened the door as usual.
mom- did you guys make the homework?
me- yea why
mom- oh wait did you guys study?
me- yeah... -i was afraid she knew, did we make too much noise?
"Sam are you lying to me?" her voice sounded really unusual. i think she knew we were not doing school stuff.
"Mom! Why are you asking me this?!" i was red. i could feel my face burning.
"Well, something happened a few minutes ago with jake. and your dad noticed too." she stayed quiet for some seconds. i didnt say anything, what could i say? she was going to tell me anywway. "jake was full of kisses, his cheeks, his nose, forehead..." there was an awkward silence and i knew she was mad if i told her that it was true that we kissed and she was going to be mad if i didnt tell her the truth.
"Well.. we were playing while we were studying." I said, my voice was about to broke. all i wanted to do was cry. her face was not happy AT ALL. she was with such a serious expression i couldnt make anything to change it.
"Playing? what were you playing? the whore game?" When she said that i wanted to punch her.
"Mom, just leave me alone. and im not a whore if thats what you think i am" i said turning to my laptop again.
She approached and i still was looking at my laptop, i didnt want to talk to her anymore. she closed my laptop and i put my head looking at my bed. "Sam... dont be that easy! guys play with girls like that. they use them like if they were barbies"
"guys dont play with barbies" i said just to annoy her.
"Im not saying they do, im saying they use girls as if they were barbies, they use them and when they dont want them anymore they change the doll for another one newer" my mom had her serious expression still and that freaked me out.
"okay mom, sorry it wil never happen again, it was kinda dumb what i did"
"dinner is almost ready and there is cake in the kitchen if you want some"
"thanks mom" i was sure going for some cake slices. yummy yummy.
before she could close the door i said "sorry" in a low voice. i think she didnt hear me but the intention was the one that counted ;D
I went downstairs and took some cake. it was delicious and i took some more slices and went to my room with them. i felt fat really fat. i always eat a lot but im not fat. but my arms are getting fatter and my legs too, my face is getting more round than ever. but whatever i love food. and cake most of all.
My stomach was full. and i felt fat. my belly was round like a ball i could feel it.
I looked at the mirror and looked at my arms, and legs, and stomach. my arms were getting thick and my legs were big really big. I tried on some clothes. the ones i was going to use the next day on school for seeing jake and being by his side all day long.
I was getting fatter and fatter and Jake was not going to like me looking like that. Last year I was fine. i was not fat. i was thin. my friends said i was skinny and i just laughed, now they dont tell me anything.
one of my friends started calling me 'big booty friend'. that was alriite until i realized i was getting fat really and that my booty was bigger than ever. everyone, not just her told me that ,but i always forgot it. but now im remembering everything.
I couldn keep eating like this. I eat dessert everyday... cookies, or chocolates, and in the afternoon when im hungry i eat ice cream.
I had to do something about this. I was going to stop eating cookies and all things like cake, and muffins or cupcakes, chips, and nutella :'C
Jake called me that night. we talked almost until 2 am.
he added me on facebook and posted on my timeline 'pretty pretty please, bring me a slice of cake of your house it looked so good... like you'
I lol'ed at that post and commented 'nope, i wont!' i wanted to mess with him a little, i wasnt going to be the 'oh sure baby i loveyou so much muacks muacks' type.
The next day i saw him in the hallway and he saw in my hands the slice of cake and ran to me. after grabbing it, he kissed me and hold my hand. while we were walking to my locker he was looking at the cake.
"Want some?" he said.
"no thankyou. im on a diet" i said very proud of myself.
"why baby? youre so-he took a look at all my body- oh baby, you look good just like this.
"i'll just stop eating chips and cookies"
"okay" he set free my hand "okay sam i gotta go, thanks for this- he said lifting up the cake as he ran to his class.
