My Greatest Fear

Confusion

Scott POV

It was at our next group meeting that I finally saw Mitch again. He had been ignoring me since the day we kissed.

It made me confused, since we didn't actually kiss.

Well, kinda. I kissed his head, but not his plump red lips that looked very kissab-

Ok, I'll stop.

But I was excited for this group meeting until Jen said what we were doing.

"Ok, so we are going to explain how we got our phobias. Including you, Mitchell" she said with a pointed glare.

He nodded and looked down.

"Ok, lets start with.. how about you Kevin?" 

He nodded and took a deep breath.

"Well, you all know my fear is of sleep. Basically, my parents were murdering in my bedroom while I was asleep. I'm scared to go to bed now, because someone else that I love might die while I sleep" he said.

I started clapping and when everyone looked at me confused, I said, "It takes guts to admit something like that."

"Thanks" Kevin said.

Next was Avi.

"My sister died while I was driving in the rain. It was my fault, I wasn't paying attention to the road. I miss her" he said.

Kevin joined in on my clapping this time.

"Well, as a kid I used to choke all the time on food for some reason. Then my mom died because she got choked by a stupid carrot. A carrot! My fear is stupid, I shouldn't be afraid of food. But I am" Jake said.

"I used to get bullied a lot, like, punched, kicked, and then people called me terrible names and gave their opinions when it wasn't wanted. So I'm scared of opinions, it reminds me of the bullies" Alex said.

Next was Kirstie, and she looked terrified. Avi reached across the circle and grabbed her hand.

"Well, I'm scared of mirrors because my ex-boyfriend Jeremy was caught cheating through a mirror. It hurts me too look in a mirror because all I can see it him kissing that other girl.." 

Avi squeezed her hand and brought it up to his lips and gave it a gentle kiss.

She giggled and I realized it was my turn.

I didn't realize how hard this would be.

"Well, basically, my parents got murdered. But they promised to never leave me alone. They promised! But they still died. They left me alone. I hated it. I was alone for 3 years!" I said, my voice breaking on the word years.

Kirstie rubbed my back to calm me down and it worked. 

Everyone was silent waiting for Mitch to talk. Soon his quiet voice spoke up.

"My boyfriend of like, 3 years killed himself. I watched him do it.. he just jumped off the building like it was nothing. I feel like he wanted to do this to me. Make me depressed, anorexic, and have bad anxiety. All in one. Plus a phobia to deal with."

"I just want to love someone but it scares me so bad to get deep in. There is this one boy though. I think I'm falling for him."