demons | nash grier

chapter six

arianna

i took the bart train from sfo to the embarcadero as soon as i got off of the plane.

there was a different feeling in my stomach then i had expected to feel when i came back to california. walking down towards pier 39 usually made me extremely happy, especially my last night here with jessie and alyson and a few of our guy friends. we drove all over the city and just completely had fun without a care in the world, but this time, walking here was different. i was here to see the guy i love in the hospital because he attempted suicide.

i dialed cameron's number and put my phone to my ear, waiting for him to answer.

"hey," he answered almost immediately.

"i'm in san franc-"

"no way!" he shouted, cutting me off. i smiled, although it felt hard for me to smile.

"and i was wondering if you'd be able to pick me up and take me to the hospital?" i finished.

"oh my god, of course, yeah." he said excitedly.

"okay well i'm at pier 39, kind of near the wharf," i told him.

"i'll be there soon," he said, hanging up. i knew it takes a pretty long time to drive through san francisco, so i decided to call my dad to tell him i was okay.

"ari, are you okay?!" he shouted without a hello.

"yes, dad, i'm fine. something just came up and it was an emergency, i promise." i tried to calm him down as i sat at an empty bench.

"you know where your aunt lives if you need to go there, okay?" my dad sighed. despite the fact that they didn't pay much attention to me, i know they cared about my safety.

"yes, i know," i answered, saying goodbye and hanging up.

i walked down to the end to mrs. fields cookies and bought a small bag to share with the other boys and have some for myself. i walked back to the top of the pier and waited for cameron.

then i saw him, walking towards me but texting on his phone. he was taller than i expected, and a huge smile appeared on my face as i stood up.

"cameron!" i yelled, and he looked up, noticing me. he smiled and ran over to me, hugging me like he promised he would. he picked me up and spun me as we hugged.

when we stopped hugging, he grabbed my hand and we walked to the car which had been parked in the nearby lot.

"i really didn't expect to meet you this way," he said after while.

"yeah, me either.."i answered, looking at our intertwined fingers on the cup holder between the seats. my stomach tightened, flashbacks of nash and i in bed together flooding into my head. this felt wrong.

"did you know he was suicidal?" cam asked, hitting the brakes at a red light.

"a little.." i admitted. it was true, i did know he was somewhat at that point. i just never thought he'd attempt.

"it would've been my fault." cam looked at me as he said it, his voice a little higher like he was trying to avoid crying.

"cam don't blame yourself.."

he shook his head and looked ahead again.

"i yelled at him, the last words i said to him before he was on the edge of a fucking bridge were "you've fucked up".. it would've been my fault." cameron said, driving ahead again. i didn't really want to ask why they had gotten into a fight, because i knew i'd end up mad at one of them and they both don't deserve that, not right now.

it was silent until we parked at the hospital and walked into the lobby and right into an elevator.

nash was in room 304, so we went to the 3rd floor and directly to the right.

300..

301...

302...

303...

i walked into room 304, seeing the other boys sitting in the fairly large hospital room. it got quiet when i walked in, all of the eyes on me.

"you guys can talk.." aaron spoke, standing and leaving the room, and the other boys mumbled in agreement before leaving, including cameron.

"nash.." i whispered, walking over to him and sitting on the edge of his bed.

"you can come closer, you won't hurt me." he sounded like he just woke up, and i realized he probably did just wake up since it was 9:16 a.m.

i moved closer to him and he scooted over for me to lay next to him.

"why did you do it?" i asked, and he sat up a little bit more.

"i wanted it to end." he stated, looking at me. i got lost in his eyes like i did the first time i looked at them and before i knew it, i was subconsciously leaning into him. i kissed him softly and he automatically kissed me back. he pulled away from me, and i felt like he was going to do what he's done every time we kissed and try to find a way for us to be apart.

"cameron cheated on you."

"what?" i asked, unsure if i heard correctly.

"i caught him cheating on you and he got mad at me and said you didn't want me.. i believed it."

"nash..."

"so i left. i thought if i jumped off of the bridge, it would all be over. i aouldn't have to worry anymore, and you'd have cameron." he went on.

"nash you know that i love you.." i put my hand on his chest, feeling his heartbeat.

"and i do want you." i said quieter, and he pulled me into his arms.

there was a moment of complete silence of us just holding each other, because we both knew we needed each other right now.

someone cleared their throat, and i saw cameron, carter, shawn, and jack g standing there. i let go of nash and looked down.

yikes.

"nash, can i steal my girlfriend for a second?" cameron asked. nash nodded and i sighed, following cameron into the hall.

"do you wanna spend the day with me?" he asked, and i looked up at him, letting out a laugh.

"what was her name, cameron?" i asked, crossing my arms.

"ari..." he groaned, and i shook my head.

"no, cameron, i don't want to spend the day with you because you cheated on me with some random girl that you'll probably never see again. and i hope she was worth it."

jack j came out of the elevator with aaron, taylor, and matt and froze when they heard what we were talking about.

"cameron you what?" matt asked, looking at him for his answer.

"we can't be together if you're going to treat me like that." i walked back into nash's room and breathed in.

"i broke up with him." i said, and the other boys gasped but nash didn't say anything, he just sat with a blank expression.

"why did you break up with cameron?" carter questioned.

i sighed, "he cheated on me."

"oh shit."

the boys left me with nash once again, and this time i could do whatever i wanted without regretting it because of cameron.

i walked over to nash's side and kissed him, never wanting to stop. he smiled during the kiss which made me smile too, because nash smiling was always something to smile about. the first thing he asked when we stopped was "will you please be mine?"

i nodded. "i would love to be yours, nash."