Loving a Gallagher (A Shameless Lip Fanfiction)

Your my favorite person to talk to

Dinner was long over and Bray had been bathed, changed and was sound asleep to his crib mobile playing music in the background. Clarissa had ended up joining me in the shower (even though she'd already had one earlier) we... Well.. Had gotten a little carried away after I called her in there to help me wash my back and... You know the rest. In my mind as we got in our bed to settle for the night I kept trying to look for a good moment to bring up the whole "Frank situation", but I was obviously taking my sweet time when I shouldn't. She is my significant other and I need to just bring it up and get it over with. I thought to myself as I kissed the back of her shoulder and started gently massaging her neck down to the middle of her back, the poor girl was obviously stressed though she didn't let it show, I knew clarissa and I knew how she was and as much as she put on a smile I knew worried more than she let on. "Lip that feels so good" she said as she took off her shirt and laid down on her stomach. "I can tell" I said as I chuckled. A few moments later I decided well it was better to talk now then put it off any longer. As she raised up to put her top on she leaned in to kiss me, "thank you babe I needed that". I smiled and nodded my head "of course, of course". I told her "Hey Risa, i saw Frank tonight"... She seemed curious so she sat back down on the bed. "Did you talk to him?" she asked me biting her finger nails which i hated so i grabbed her hands and put them in mine. Looking her in the eyes, i knew she wasn't going to be angry but she wasn't going to be thrilled ether after all he had put me and my siblings through and what all had happened to us together because of him made it even worse but looking into those beautiful eyes of hers it was better to be open with her than try to hide it. 

"I did, talk to him briefly" i said with a pause "He was drunk of course and i had to basically bribe him" but..... "But what Lip?" Clarissa said softly as I rubbed her hands up to the length of her arm. Well, I may have talked about him possibly meeting Brayden.... The room became silent and we just gave each other a blank stare. "Should I of not have?" I said caressing her face. "No, it's not so much that" she said with a pause "I...I just don't want you to put yourself out there for disappointment and....." She stopped in mid sentence. "Go on.." I interjected "I just know if Frank being around him right now is a good thing, because you and him have a lot to fix in your own relationship maybe Brayden being so little.... Well" I butted in, "isn't a good way to start off his relationship? In the midst of our problems?" I had taken the words right out of her mouth. She sat there fiddling with her thumbs, nodding her head. I sat there taking everything in consideration but some part of me thought things were going to be different even if I was wrong .. So wrong in fact, I still wanted to find out for myself and if anything give him a few moments with my son and let him see me with him and possibly regret everything he had ever done. I hated the son of a bitch, and his blood may flow through my veins but my hearts bigger and I want to show him what a real father looked like.
Things had gotten a tad bit awkward for a few moments between us as we talked more about it things became clearer and she agreed to let him meet him but if he was in anyway intoxicated or anything what so ever I needed to take him back to Kev and V's.  Then more I thought about it the more I understood I was fixing to enter dangerous territory and Clarissa had always been my guardian angel and she was just protecting me from any pain or harm that part of my life always seemed to follow with, I held her close all night until we dozed off to sleep. Sleeping well into the morning to the sound of Clarissa putting her shoes on and kissing me as she left for work being as tired as I was I mumbled the words I love you and faded back to sleep for a few more hours til the sound of fighting from Debs and Carl woke Brayden and I up.