Loving a Gallagher (A Shameless Lip Fanfiction)

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Adjusting to college life with a baby, fiancé and a full time job was no joke, it was hard. A lot harder then I realized it would be, we had a student apartment in which the school paid for out of my grants which was great considering Clarissa, Brayden and I had a place of our own. But traveling back and forth from work and visiting the family ever week was becoming costly we were both tired and worn out but we kept going and still remained as affectionate and independent​ in our relationship as well as our love life. Though we were both equally exhausted we pushed through it to make this family work. I had picked up a job at a local book store barely scraping together a paycheck but it was a paycheck, Clarissa was still working at the pizza parlor on the weekends when we traveled but worked a diner job in town three times a week money was tight of course but we had a child and kids aren't cheap. I contemplated taking a break and starting again next semester but Clarissa always talked me out of it. Brayden was almost one, which I couldn't believe it felt like just yesterday our lives changed when he came into the world. I was at the library with Brayden while Risa was at work, when my phone went off trying to answer it before the noise got me in trouble it was Fiona.
"Hey stranger", she said in a hyper voice "Your Christmas break starts Friday right?" She asked me before I could even say hi. Yes I said highlighting a Chapter in my book and rocking Bray in his car seat located on the table beside my books. "You're coming home right?" She asked "we all miss you so much we need these three weeks to spend time with one another". Yeah, yeah were coming home we already have bus tickets. "Great" she replied. How's everyone Ian yelled in the background you could hear Debbie and Carl arguing and smacking each other behind him. All the commotion was causing me to loose my focus. "We're great hey can I call you back?, I'm kinda in the middle of studying and Im in a library" alright yeah that's fine give Brayden love from all of us Fiona shouted above the Ruckus of the house. Will do I said hanging up the phone trying to soothe Brayden before he woke up fully he had been cranky all day so I decided I was getting no where studying at this point so I might as well go ahead and leave so I shoved everything into my backpack and headed home. I tried to study at home but my mind wandered, school was getting tougher and all I really wanted was to take a semester off go back to south side and stay and save up some money the old way only part of that is I lost a lot of connections so therefore I would have to make new ones or do something I would rather saw my hand off than do... Get in touch with Frank. I had done good at keeping my distance and us staying our separate ways we had no contact since that night half a year ago and he still hadn't met his grandson as much as I hated to even consider talking to Frank a part of me thought it was time. I just had to convince Clarissa that taking a semester off was a good thing, and talk to her about Frank she's the one person who's always understood me and always been there and the last thing I wanted was to disappoint the love of my life.
Later that night I was done with all my studies, prepared as I could be to take my midterms this Friday. The house was clean and Brayden had been bathed,fed and changed and was already sleeping to the sound of his mobile hanging above his crib. I sat in the dark of our lonely little living room pondering what exactly was the right decision for myself and my family. I sat there for at least an hour waiting on Risa to get off work, when I heard the door open. Clarissa walked in with leftovers for dinner like we had most nights. I made her jump when she saw me sitting in the dark. "Lip" she shouted, "you scared the hell out of me" she gasped with one hand holding our dinner and the other one over her heart. I'm sorry I said, standing up to greet her giving her a big kiss and a tight hug "I missed you" I said in her ear holding her close to me. I missed you too babe, Clarissa said. Oh I'm sorry let me take that I said, taking the food out of her hands and turning on the light. "They may need to be warmed" she replied taking off her uniform and stripping into her bra and underwear walking into our room to grab one of my t-shirts. Standing in the hallway twisting her long blonde hair in a messy bun she looked so sexy in the most simplest of ways. He's already asleep, man your good she chuckled. "Come here", I asked her as she sat down on my lap in the kitchen. Is something wrong? She asked me playing with my hair. I want to talk to you about something... I paused
Okay she said as she nodded, I'm listening. I kept quite for a minute to figure out what to say and exactly how to say it. "You know I am grateful for this opportunity to be at such and elite school like this" she nodded. "And I love how supportive you are and have been through all this change and struggle we've had since moving" yes she nodded again. I took a deep breath, "I really think for our sake and our families sake, I should step down and take a semester off and start back in the Fall" she just looked at me with a blank stare. "Are you sure this is what you want to do?" She looked at me still running her fingers through my hair. "Yes, as much as I love the fact I got in, I sincerely think with all that's going on with and how were struggling more it would be in our favor for us to move back home considering and I can get my school books and study while I'm out for when I return". Can you do that? She asked "I've already cleared it and asked for an advance in my scheduling I just have to keep them updated". So you're really serious? Your Sure?. "Yes I gasped" and... I started to speak but paused "and what Lip?" She chimed on my unfinished sentence I want to talk to Frank! I said making her jaw drop. "Frank?, why Frank?" She asked me pulling away.  Shaking my head I couldn't come up with a good enough reason to explain "It's complicated babe, I more or less need some guidance or advice if you will and I honestly think I need it from him" I said as she just stared at me with a blank expression. "As long as you don't allow yourself to be hurt anymore than you already have been, I'm not going to tell you what to do just be careful Lip" always Clarissa I said hugging her hoping I wasn't about to let myself down for even attempting but it was worth a shot.... Right?