Alpha's Abused Mate

Chapter 7 Doubt and death

Braxton's POV

The voice has stopped. It makes me really nervous. I might be worrying too much but I can't help it. I was barely catching the words the teacher was saying. My old pack never let me go to school. Ryder got really angry that they took away so much of my childhood for their own selfishness. So I started school about a week ago. The classes were intimidating at first but I'm catching up with everyone. I was currently in philosophy and the teacher was talking about a guy named kant. Not exactly my favorite subject but it is an interesting subject none the less. "Fuck I am tired" I mentally groaned. It was almost lunch time and I couldn't wait to eat. I skipped breakfast because I was late. So when the bell finally rang, I was the first one out the door.

I quickly made it to my locker to drop off my books and made my way to lunch. 80% of the students here were from my pack so I got a lot of waves and hi's as I went to lunch. I still am amazed by the kindness that everyone has shown me these last few weeks. I am starting to get used to everyone and I have learned at least 30 new names. I hope to learn everyone's name. But I was still too nervous to eat in the lunch room. It would feel awkward to stand there and try to find some place that I can sit. Everyone already has their cliche and I still have a lot to learn about school life. So when I get my food, I opt to eat in the music room. It was my next class and I liked to look at the different instruments that were in there. I was about half way done with my food when the door opened and trisha walked in with her little followers. She didn't notice me at first but when she did, she glared at me. I didn't say anything and just continued to eat. There was no reason to try to argue with her. She has made it clear that she doesn't like me and I don't really like her either, so the feeling is mutual. I was done and got ready to pick up my tray and leave when she walked up to me. She didn't say anything at first, just glared. Which is really creepy by the way. "Is there something that you want?" I asked. "He won't keep you long, you know that right" She smirked. My eyes narrowed and I growled. She seemed taken back by this and her eyes widened in surprise. And then she got this huge smile on her face and started to laugh at me. She was laughing so hard, she was clutching her sides. "Is there something funny?" I growled.

"You can't actually believe that he will stay with you right?" she laughed. I glared down at her and I could feel my wolf wanting to attack. "I mean, how could he want you? You're just the reject of your own pack. not only that, but you're stupid, weak, a faggot, and honestly not even cute" she laughed. Her friends around her snickered at her comments. "What the hell would you know? he is not even your mate" I growled. Her eyes snapped up at me and she growled. "Yes he is! I can actually give him pups. I am a women. I am beautiful, strong, and can actually count to ten without stuttering" she laughed in my face. I looked away and tried not to let her words get to me. "Face it, you're just a bump in the road and soon enough he will leave you" she smirked and walked away, bumping my shoulder. Her friends all gave me side way glances with looks of disgust and walked away from me. "He wouldn't leave us. We're his mate" my wolf growled but then whimpering, letting me know her words did strike deep. It's because everything she said was true. I won't be able to provide everything that a normal Luna would. My background is all fucked up and I am already starting to trouble him with my old packs problems. I bit the inside of my gum and tried to think rationally but I couldn't. I don't know how long I stood there but when I did move, I walked down the hall and right out the school doors. I went towards the woods that were just a few feet away and shifted into my orange wolf. I shook out my fur and ran to let off some steam.

My mind was swirling. Her words rang in my head like a horrible song that people keep playing on the radio. I sat in the middle of the forest. Even though it was still kind of early, animals were not as active as they usually were. "Mate loves us. Ignore that cunt" my wolf growled. "But what if she's right? I mean mates usually mark each other the moment they meet. but Ryder hasn't even given us a kiss" I whimpered. "What if he feels like he has to be with us because we're mates" I cried. "...he does...he does love us...right?" my wolf whimpered. No one can really love us anymore. The people who did are dead and they aren't coming back. We're weak. We're ugly. We're unwanted. It was nice being ignorant for a few weeks but it's time that I grew up. No matter what, I am hated by everyone.