"lets end this" He said.
for a moment, no for a long moment.. I donno how long, i had held my breath.
"what?" I asked. Now fully awake. Did i hear something wrong?
sighing he replied "I want to be with her. I choose her"
my breath. Damn, why am i living? To live this day?
"then why, why did you come to me" i wanted to cry, i wanted to scream. But nothing came out.
"you're a really good friend of mine dear, I really wanted to see you and spend time. I really had a nice time with you" He replied
what an imbecile reply. I snorted, "then why did you kiss me?" I asked
i heard him gasping "dear.. I don-i donno ok." He stuttered.
Damn you, "it was just a spur of the moment" How original..
So i lost my first kiss for 'spur of the moment'
he continued, "you looked beautiful ok, you really are.. I like to be with you but i cant continue this relationship. I cant hurt her"
so its fine to hurt me?? I wanted to ask.
When you where already in a relationship you came to me, made me confess to you, took me on a date, stole my first kiss, handled me for 3months, which i thought where my best days, and now, you can't hurt her??
Is this why am i live?? To hear this??
i wanted to throw a tantrum, i wanted to cry, i was breathless as it is, his words weren't helping either, over that i had a heavy bleeding of the month.. I was aghast.. I just stood from my bed, leaning on the table, I replied,
"ok, i understand, i already agreed for you to choose whats the best for you, take care, bye"
i ended the call before he could reply, and opened my drawers to find aspirin or any tablets which would help me.
in the dim lit room by bed lamp, i gulped the tablet i got from my drawer i didn't check what it was.
i sighed a long breath as soon as i dropped the water bottle.. Cliche as it may seem, what am i doing??
i just got rejected by my long standing crush. He chose her over me. I raised my head to stare at mirror right infront of me. I remember i had agreed to this, to make him his choice, yet why is it hurting so bad?
"am i that ugly, have i gained weight again??"
when did i turn into a typical girl?
so he left me huh, he chose her huh! Wow!! Now im a third wheel, why didn't i see this coming. I thought i was special for him?
so im the third person in this love triangle, im the bad woman who intervened between him and her.
what a wonderful time of my life. I checked my timepiece it read 3.35am, i must really remember this timeline.
i started to laugh. Wow! What a classic im living in. Where am i leading to?
I thought, damn i thought, i even imagined, had a strong faith in him that i was ready to elope with this guy if my parents didn't approve..
Damn did i really believe in him so much in just span of 3 Months??
but he always knew how to calm me, Or was it just my brain accepting whatever he said than him really consoling??
how low ive dropped myself to? I thought, damn ive changed haven't i??
why did you come in my life?
why did i have a stupid faith in you?
why did i even kiss you?
why did i even thought you would be the one to live my rest of my life with??
damned life and the cliche moments. I am really influenced by romantic movies and novels so much that i turned to be the third wheel in this triangle.
all my i thought i would meet my "prince charming" - love him to my last breath - would never let go for anyother person in this world - have family with him - live forever happy together.
sappy right?? Too much of a cliche right??
well in reality i turned into the peasant girl who "prince charming" ditches for his "beautiful princess".
What a pathetic First love of mine!
