Things happen.. Things churn up..
Throws you into a series of Rollercoaster.
People let go of you in barren hill or cold mountain... They leave you clueless.
Though earth is round.. You think you'll never see them again.. Ever.
At times it so happens, that which you want to occur in your life, just happens without a clue beforehand..
But I believe that there would be a day.
A day when someone who loves me making me so weak to the point that without enduring their presence I wouldn't even think of breathing, would cherish all my feels, that would be Sweetest part of Love Life.
Waiting for you my sweetheart.. When you appear I'll be all yours.
Loving you blindly.
And will never let you go.. Until you complain "Honey, my neck hurts darling"
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Clattering of desk and chairs
Chaos in the haze background
though faces are unclear, the voice is crystal clear and recognisable but yet dazed off state.
I'm trying to gain my balance
Balance that I am out of..
Balance that is so crucial to maintain the silence on the room.
Am in search of something
don't no what it is
Yet I want it...
In the dazed state my eyes ponder for those Eyes that I am reclutantly expecting to be fixed on me.
and Alas!
It was.
It is staring at me.
On me alone with shadowed slithering smile on face.
Though a sarcastic smirk to me..
I felt it like was mocking.
I wanted it to be by my side, my heart ached, the hands twitched towards it.
"No" My conscious spoke.
'I can't do this'
My balance went off, and that is the last thing I know..
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The first thing I percieved was a warm feeling.
Really warm.
Enveloping my body against it..
I was so weak to respond to its warm wrap.
First instinct of mine was to lean further into the hold. Cuddling into the warmth.
A second later I felt being patted slowly and precisely being pulled further into warmth.
Subconsicously I felt like, that thing which was holding me so tight was smirking and leaning close towards my ear.
Hot breath blew into my ear,
"Stay as long as you want. I won't even think of letting you go."
"hn" I responded subconsciously.
I wanted to look into the eyes of such a caring toned person.
I wanted to see those eyes.
The genuine tone that belonged to what kind of person.
Slowly raising my head to look at this caring person.. And it was,
'HIM'
"Ahh.. Why you?" Though my heart was saying 'Only You'
His face still had that calm genuine smile though right now it didn't seem sarcastic to me nor his eyes gave away.. He meant it..
GOSH!! HE MEANT IT!!
But it was too late.. The force of my push earlier had made him fall into a dark gaping below.. Yet his face was serene and smiling at me..though unspoken those words where as if printed on his face 'Stay With Me For Long'
My heart ached, my mind sore and body painfully aching.. Aching for his touch.
My love overcame all of it. And I fell back into Haze.
BLACK OUT!
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I miss you.. Its a disease I guess
I need you.. Its a requirement I guess
Your absence I don't like because I feel lonely when you say "See you later"
Can't you.. Why can't you stay?
Always by, by my side.
Holding me, loving me to the eternity..
I know its insanity.. Ofcourse if I was sane why the hell would I love you till date..
Till this moment.
Not making myself available. If not you I don't want to have anyone.. Anyone at all.
Not a single one of them.
This loner life is better than give myself to someone who is not You.. Because I love you.
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I know you never ever expected me to turn back to you.. Brush those minute feelings which was left untouched by me...
I don't know whether this is love. But all that I know is...
If not you in my life then nobody.. Nobody can be there.
Insane, I am because when you left alone all I think is of You.
You said I deserve more, but for me you're more. Nobody can fill that space.. The space of my heart that you furnish so beautifully.
I'll endure you.
I'll endure because you're my esctasy.
I couldn't love you wholeheartedly.
That's why I don't want you to come back to me because I know,
Once again I'll say "I don't love you"
But my dear, "I'm sorry I love you"
