Its a lonely life
Its a lonely day
this emptiness in my heart can't be filled by love
because..
I was alone
I am alone
I will be alone
till my last breath
No matter how much ever relations we make in our life..
At the end of the day we are left alone.
No matter the amount of love we get we are lonely
that's the truth.
Life teaches us alot of things
It teaches us a smile when we want to cry out loud..
It teaches us to speak softly when we damn badly want to scold..
It teaches us to kill our feelings when we really want to share..
Because even though shadow stays with us all the time disappears at Mid-day.
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What a day!
After a long time I got to hear about punctuality and enthusiasm, which is focused on the point of achievement.
I was missing this point in my life from past few days.
I was feeling lost and more attached to human bonds which aren't staying with me.
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I have changed in so many ways.
Just like a seedling transforms into a sappling after enough manure and sunlight.
My life had taken vague turn, I fell in love, loved that person so much that I couldn't even bare the separation.
I realised my sensitive side, which I always boasted as the tough heart indeed melted like an ice-berg in heat.
After all I rejoiced the sense of true feeling of loving, though it was one sided yet it was,
inseparable, confusing, attaching, caring and hurting...
I still love him every moment, it became so true that 'love is blind'
I completely became obvious towards the reality.
My logic sneered saying it isn't the best for me, yet I took in the path to fool myself.
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I'm really confused, very confused..
Whatever I spoke just a few minutes ago, I don't know..
Why am I doing this?
Why did I do that?
I donno..
I got no answer.
I didn't want to ruin his life nor his peace of mind. Damn! I..
I donno..
I am not stubborn much, to get what I want.. I want to gain it with full pride and content.
What did I just do?
Damn! I just showed how weak I really am. That's not it, I really do not know why I did it!
What was the point in doing it?
I wanted this feeling long back.
But jow at thus moment I feel,
I feel erased.. I'm forgetting.
Shit! Really?
What just happen to me?
Why did I...
I call him?
