Maddison's journey arrives at a big defining moment.
After everything she has been through with Nash and Brooklyn,all she wants is to have a good time; Will she manage to stay loyal to herself?
With Maddison's new habits,Keith has lots to deal while...
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To be completely honest,the next few hours were a blur.Maddison and I arrived at the Chelsea house and all hell had already broke loose.My father had already been told about the passing and he wanted to tell my grandmother himself.I knew he was trying to be strong,and so was I,but we were ridiculously failing.
Every Manchester was in this room crying and holding onto each other in this moment of pain.Karina and I gave a break in our little war and she cried in my chest hugging me tightly,like she used to do when we were kids.It is weird feeling like this.Feeling like Karina truly has a heart somewhere in there.
At some point,I went into the kitchen to get some whiskey and also some air; I felt like doing something I haven't done since my academy/college days,I felt like I needed to smoke.I knew grandfather had a cigaratte somewhere in here but before I could look for it,Maddison showed up in front of me.
I needed no cigaratte.I needed her; Desperately.
'I came to talk to you.' Maddison says coming closer.
'I arranged the funeral and I also arranged the whole transportation from here back to Edinburgh.' She informs me.I must look very surprised because she giggled approaching me.
'Liam helped; It helps when you know the royal deputy of the Prince of England.' Liam was promoted to the staff of Prince William.I knew Maddison would turn to her uncle.Me and father are emotional unavailable; I just can't believe she is doing this for me.
'I am just very thankful you are doing this.Sincerely,thank you.' I say feeling more tears fall down intentionaly.Maddison opens her arms and I fall into them.
She holds me tightly and that's all I needed.I want to talk about what she said.I want to talk about what it has been going on between the two of us.I just can't do anything.All the pain just comes back.Maddison is right.I have the right to grieve.
'We leave for Edinburgh in an hour.' Maddison tells; She mentions to leave but I push her close and pass my hand in her cheek.
'Will you come with me?' I ask as she cleans my cheeks with her thumbs.
'Of course! I will be where you need me to be.' Maddison is so strong.It is unbelivable,sometimes.She is being strong for both of us.
'We will eventually talk about...' I start but she stops me.
'Keith,stop...I am a huge believer things will work out.' She says with those big green eyes I always fall in love with.Every single day more.
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Here is a thing I wish I never had to do: Writing a speech for my grandfather's funeral.
It is the worst speech I will have to write.I sincerelly don't know how to write or what to say.I can't think straight and it is adding up leaving me to the state of craziness.It's been like twenty hour since grandfather passed.It was all a blur; Coming to Edinburgh,talking to other people,listening people say they are sorry.I just noticed how much I hate the way people look at you when someone you love dies.
