Demi Lovato

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(Demi's P.O.V)

It's a week till tour, I'm sitting in my room wrecking my brain for a new song. Hayley's been helping out. I've already got the instrumental cords and the notes, I just need lyrics.

After about 2 hours I started thinking about all my old songs. Skyscraper, that one was a hit. And lala land.. yeah that song brings back the memories

Flash back
"Demi your overweight and you need to lose weight." And instructor would yell at me

"I know I'm sorry, my family and friends tell me I'm not fat and they make me eat" I cried "I know I'm fat"

"Demetria! Your being put in a fat camp for 2 weeks!"

"Whaaat?...."

"You heard me"

The demons would never leave me alone.
Every night id cut. Every time I got bullied, I'd shoot heroine up my arm.  It was all I had

"Demetria!" Nevine
Would shout at me "are you self harming again?!"

"No!!"  Id defend myself

"Liar" he'd smirk "you need to be punished" he'd grab my arm and pull me into the closet or bathroom.. and rape me.

After that experience, I landed myself in rehab

End of flash back

I threw all the papers across the room and sat there with my knees to my chest resting my head in my hands and my elbows rested on my Knees. I started crying.

I got up and locked my door.

I went into the bathroom and got my blade.. my old best friend.... I know, pathetic. I stared at it, I haven't used this in ages..
I never threw it away I always kept it incase I needed it. I sat down and wondered if I wanted to take this road again. No! I have to be strong. But it was to late. The blade was running across my arm. The blade got slippery with all my blood. I went in to the shower and cut more.. I started crying, so hard.

The next thing I knew Dallas was in the bathroom screaming at me. Was I imagining things?

"Demi! Demi stop your going to be ok, ok calm down Demi." She wrapped a towel around me and told me to get dressed, I sat back down on my bed still in tears. 

Dallas started to clean out my cuts and wrap them in a bandage. "Why did you do this Demi, you were doing so well. I truly thought you'd recovered" she whispered

I didn't even know what to say..

I opened my mouth to talk but all that came out were sobs "hey hey Demi, it's ok." She opened her arms and I fell into them just sitting in her comfort crying. "My past. Just haunts me, I can't get rid of it, it won't go away!!" I screamed hitting my head crying
"Demi stop! It's going to be ok! Those people can't hurt you anymore. The only person that can hurt you is you! ...." she paused "don't let that happen"

I started to panic "breath with me Demi, breath with me, in, and out. In and out"
I started to calm down and my breathing become regular again

I sat there thinking for a minute.

"When did you get here, Dallas?" I asked

"About 5 minutes after Hayley called me telling me you were crying and didn't know what to do" she replied

I cried even harder, I feel so bad, "I'm a failure Dallas, I'm failing her!" I cried

"What! No you most definitely are not!. do you think Hayley would've called me if she thought that? If she didn't care? She rang me up saying she's worried about you and doesn't know what to do but she wants to help because she loves you"

"She said that?"

"Uh huh" she smiled

I sniffed and smiled a little bit.

"Dallas how'd you get in my room? The door was locked?"

She turned around and looked at the door.
"I'm sorry, I'll buy you a new knob" she laughed

"Don't worry about it" I smiled.

We sat there for a little while. "Demi, I think we should take you back to see Sarah.."

"No!!!"  Sarah is my physiologist

Dallas signed "I'm afraid if you don't.. I'll have to tell mum."

"No Dallas please" I begged "she'd be so disappointed" then I thought of something even worse "you can't tell Hayley!!"

"Can't tell me what?" Hayley's little voice said from my door.

Me and Dallas both snapped our heads in her direction

"Hayley." I smiled "what're you doing in here??"

"I just came up to tell you that.. Niall's here" she said pointing to the direction of the living room "I'll be in my room.... I- I love you" she smiled

I smiled so wide ear to ear "I love you to baby girl" I laughed at the end with joy.

Wait Niall?! What's he doing back here

"Demi you looked distressed! What's wrong"

"It's Niall"

"What about him?"

"He's here!" I could tell she was confused. She doesn't know about what happened the other week.

I quickly filled her in on as much information as possible, while we walked down in the living room to meet him.

"No way! Niall? Nah he wouldn't do a thing like that!!" Dallas was absolutely shocked

"... but he did." I cried

I don't know how to handle this