Dancer ♣ joshler

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Two days passed. I managed to avoid him.
Why?
Because I can't.
I couldn't.
I couldn't handle that. I couldn't handle him.
I got messages. I didn't reply.

It was dark outside.

2:00

A knock on the door.
"Tyler I know you're awake."

"Let me in."

"Tyler I'm gonna kick this door down." he sounds angry.

I got up and opened the door.
I couldn't look up.

I was in my sweats and my robe. My hair is a mess. I am a mess.
I just turned around and sat back on my bed.
I heard him enter and close the door silently.

"Tyler. You're avoiding me." he stood in the doorway.

"Did I do something? Did I say something wrong?" he approached me and I flinched.

"Tyler what is wrong?" he was slightly annoyed.

He sat on the bed trying to look at my face and I crashed.

"Tyler?" he asked worriedly as I whimpered.

"I can't." I muttered barely audible.

"What Tyler? Talk to me!"
He stepped closer and touched my knee.

"That! Stop doing that!" I screamed.
He jumped back.

"I'm sorry! I-I don't know what I'm doing Tyler."

"Look at you!" I looked up, trying to stay quiet.
"You're gorgeous. Your hair, your eyes, your smile, your laugh." I blushed.
"Everything about you makes me smile and I can't stop thinkng about you." he wanted to say something but his lip only trembled.
"I never thought I would find myself in this situation but I think I like you Joshua. And I am scared." I couldn't stop myself.
I looked up at him and he was crying.
"Joshua...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to..."
I didn't want to hurt him.
"No. It's... Fine." he sniffed and smiled. "I just....never thought...someone like you would like me back." he stood up, wiping away his tears.
"I'm just so incredibly... happy." he laughed trough tears.
"I... I don't understand." I muttered.
"Tyler." he sat down next to me on the bed and I didn't mind. "This might sound extremely weird bit I don't are anymore." he chuckled again. "I can't stop thinking about you since the day my brother showed me that video of you."

What now?

"Wait...you like.... me?" I barely finished the sentence.

"Tyler." he smiled "Do you own a mirror?" I chuckled with him and covered my face.

We sat in silence.

"What now?" I managed to ask because I was so scared. I didn't know what to do.

"I don't want to force you to anything. I will leave you to think about it or talk to someone, okay?" he said softly.
"Okay. Thank you."
He smiled. "I should go since its almost 3am." I got up too and we made our way to the door. I opened the door and he slowly stepped out.
"Bye Tyler."

"Bye Joshua."

I closed the door and something in my mind pressed the panic button.
I slammed the door open and grabbed him by the shirt, pulling him back in the room. He looked confused and I was panicking as he was leaning against the wardrobe in my room.
I took a deep breath and pressed my lips against his. He was confused but eventually he smiled and I couldn't contain myself either. His hands went up to cup my face and I melted into him. We broke the kiss and I leaned against his shoulder while he wrapped his hands around me. "This feels so good." he breathed out. "Mhhhm" I smiled into his neck.

"Ugh I have to go..." he sighed.
"Yeah." I pulled away and he smiled.
"Bye Tyler."
"Bye Joshua."

Okay. I was literally fucking crying soz
This story is finally getting some recognition. I'm seriously thinking about deleting Notes because it's getting so much attention but it's so badly written. It has many errors and cringy parts but ppl still read it? Okay hope u like this so far it's gonna be so good, stay tuned, tears and joy ahead