Fatal Romance

Chapter 26

Natayshia's POV.

I was so happy waking up this afternoon reading Kelner's note, it was nice reading about how much he enjoyed last night, is excited for our next step together, and then also mentioned that he was in his office as he had a meeting with his father. Glad to know where to go and find him. After getting ready I made his father and him some lunch and have been in his office since. The loss my pack elders will soon be feeling has me just wanting to fall back to sleep to avoid all this heartache. My heart going out to them but also fearful of feeling their sorrow through the link.

As I'm sitting with Kelner I make calls to the deceased family's relatives before making the last call to my pack elders. I have no fear of them hearing about before I tell them because after each phone call I let the family know I am the Alpha to the elders of the decreased family and they should hear it from me. They all say they understand and will let me inform them instead of accidentally hearing it from them. I let them know if they wanted to talk to them they could call tomorrow or in the next few days, preferably later so they could have time to deal with it.

Out of all of the phone calls I have made today the phone call to my pack members is going to be the hardest. As I sit on Kelner's lap I mold myself to his body, he's finished his phone calls now so he just holds me as I dial the number. I've switched positions so we're both facing the doorway as I make the call. He leans his chin on my shoulder for comfort and kisses the back of my ear for reassurance. The dial tone sounds and I wait for Rodney and Judith to answer their phone. To hear that their daughter is dead is going to break their hearts as much as it is breaking mine right now. The only difference is I will soon feel it so much more because as their Alpha I will feel their pain and sorrow too.

"Hello, Rodney speaking!" The sound of his voice is so cheerful and I know in a few seconds the sound of happiness will be wiped away by anguish. "Rodney this is your Alpha Natayshia." He answers me before I can tell him, "Oh hi Alpha! You're still at your mate's pack? I felt you complete your mating, congratulations! We're all waiting for you to return to start the celebrations. My Judith is already running around like a chicken without a head, helping the other ladies of the pack prepare. You should see your mother, commanding everyone like a queen saying her 'baby girl needs the perfect mating celebration there is', a parents never stops caring no matter how grown up their child is."

I blush at his words, I forgot a pack could feel when their Alpha has completed their mating, and lucky for Kelner his pack wouldn't have felt anything because he isn't Alpha yet. I feel a twinge of sadness as to what I'm about to do. They sound so happy for me and now I have to wipe that away with the loss of their child. The fondness and love for his child crushing me.

He still hasn't noticed the sadness in my voice but with what I have to say now there will be no denying it. "Thanks Rodney, but listen please, I have something to tell you. Is Judith there with you? Can you put me on speaker?" I stop for a second and I hear someone else on the other end of the line ask what is going on. The second I heard the sound coming through the phone change I start and I don't give him a chance to speak again.

"Rodney, Judith..." I have to stop, my voice cracking and I hear shallow, almost on the verge of hyperventilating breathing coming through the other line. I think they are starting to sense that something is wrong and this is not just a friendly phone call. "I'm so sorry. You daughter Magdalena and her family were killed. That's why Kelner and I had to rush back here, they were murdered and I only just found out she was your daughter. I let everyone else in your family know, and I'm sorry, I didn't call you first because I knew how much this would devastate you. I'm so sorry."

The minute I finish I hear screaming on the other end, my chest tighten and squeezes in pain as it strikes through my body. I can't imagine what they must be really feeling when mine is just watered down through the link. I hear her screaming and then a thump as Judith collapses to the ground asking why, what did they ever do to deserve this, how could this happen to their baby girl, how could this happen to their family. The sound of them both weeping reaches my ears and then I hear multiple footsteps running through their house. Someone must have heard her wails and their crying from outside. I feel Kelner's arms pull me tighter against him, I can feel some of the pain in my chest ease as he takes it into himself, not let me carry it alone. I hear him groan letting me know he is finally feeling it too, and how strong it is.

The loss of a child is always the greatest. Now, to some extent, I know what it feel like. Her screams, her weeping and wails are going to haunt me for a long time. I feel I will hear it in my dreams or carried through the wind and into my ears and mind. "Hello? Is anyone there?" I hear the person on the other line asking impatiently. If it wasn't for Kelner nudging me I would have stayed lost in my own mind, deaf to the sorrow. "Daddy it's me," he breathes a sigh, "Nattie, what has happened, what's going on? Neither of them are talking to us, we just heard her cries from outside and came in. Oh shit, Judith just shifted." The sound of a mourning howl vibrates through the phone so loudly I have to remove it from my ear and as it quiets I press it back against me.

I realize only now that I was taken off speaker so they can't hear me tell me dad, especially with all the noise. Either way I hear my father leaving the room to another and the slamming of a door. He's moved to another room so he can hear me properly. "Daddy, I didn't know this but their daughter Magdalena was mated to David, a member of Kelner's pack. They were murdered, brutally. Along with their two children. Becoming an Alpha, I didn't realize I would feel the loss this greatly. How do you do it?" I can feel the walls closing in and I start to hyperventilate. I feel Kelner's hands everywhere, on my back, my face, trying to smooth my despair. I feel him try to take more of the pain into himself so I don't have to feel the full strength of it but it's all I can focus on.

"Natayshia, breathe love breathe. Listen to my voice. The way I dealt with it was remembering that knowing I felt their loss too, it was a comfort to them. Right now you're just absorbing their pain, calm yourself and send back your reassurance. Let them feel your love and prescence. Focus on that and it will ease the pain for both of you." So that's what I do, I take deep breaths and as I begin to calm I slowly send my love to Judith and Rodney. I hear my father leave the room he is in and walks towards the mourning couple. "That's it sweetheart, you're doing great. They're calming down now, can you feel it?" 

Surprisingly I do, the more I focus on them the more I sense the increase of their physical wellbeing. I can feel their bodies relax and their hearts slow, I sense the heartache they feel but it eases as they begin to sense my love being sent to them. "I think you calmed them down a lot. I've never done this before but you actually made them fall asleep. They must be feeling a little more at peace. I'm so proud of you sweetheart, you did an amazing job. Listen, your mother and I will stay here with them until you can come back, okay?" I breathe a sigh of relief and bask in the pride of my father, "okay dad. We're having the funeral hear so I'll let you know when that is. I have to talk to Kelner about arrangements, and then I will be coming to them as soon as I can. I love you daddy, thank you."

"I love you too sweetheart. Talk to you soon," with that said he hangs up and so do I. I put the phone down and look at Kelner. I'm shocked to find him forcefully taking deep breaths and sweat dripping from his forehead. "You idiot, you tried to carry most of the pain didn't you? Thank you...you're amazing." He nodded his head at my question, answering in a yes and to prove my thanks I lean in and kiss him. As I pulled back I ask him, "so will it be okay if my pack comes here for the funeral? Since you don't live to far away most of them can drive back home when it's over but I think I'd like to keep my elders with me, they need to be close to me." Kelner tiredly smiles at me, "that sounds like a good idea, I'll have a room set up for them." Again I lean forward and press my lips to his in thanks, I don't know how I would have handled that without him.

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This chapter broke my heart. The loss of a child is horrible, I have never experienced it but my heart goes to those who have. Just know that there are people out there who are there for you, that is something you never have to go through alone.

On a different note, I have just made a book about stories I am planning on writing, I'd love for you to check it out and let me know what you think. Vote or comment on which ones you like. Commenting will help me know which one most people are interested in and I may just post that one next when on of my stories is completed! Thanks everyone!

-Viorra