During the dinner I couldn't stop looking at Y/N. She wasn't the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen in my life, but still, something about her made me curious. I wanted to know who this girl was, what her interests were, what was her story, what were her achievements in life, where she wanted to live.
She was extremely elegant, and I'm not only talking about how she was dressed: her manners, her posture, the way her fingers held the cutlery. Everything about her screamed elegance, but not in an annoying way. She reminded me of Audrey Hepburn, with her black hair in an elegant bun and dressed in black.
Her accent was a bit strange, because she wasn't English, but she pronounced words very well and knew how to speak fluently. She smiled every time someone talked to her, but I also noticed that she couldn't look at people directly in the eyes for more than a few moments.
I supposed she was extremely smart as well. She knew four languages, she went to university, and I was sure she had so many other talents.
I'd love to know her better, but how could I tell her that I'd love to see her again? I'm always quite clumsy in these situations, that's probably why I've never had a lot of girlfriends, and also friends in general. These were the thought that ran through my head for the whole dinner.
I began wondering how I could compete: I was socially inept, a massive nerd, I dropped uni, I wasn't graceful neither interesting at all, whereas she was extremely intriguing, she probably had a lot of stories to tell since she was born abroad and she was fascinating as well. She would never want to hang out with me. But still, she seemed to enjoy Phil's company, so I wondered if she would get on with me, even though me and Phil were quite different from each other.
Phil noticed that I was looking on her direction more than I would normally do, and when he went to the toilet a little bit before the dinner ended, he whatsapped me.
Phil:I think you should ask her out mate
Dan: She would never want to hang out with me
Phil:Why? I think you should give it a try
Dan: You know I'm too afraid, she surely doesn't want to hang out with me as I just met her for the first time
Phil:How about we ask her if she wants to hang out with us both? I know her a little more than you do
Dan:Would you do that for me?
Phil:Of course I would
Phil came back from the toilet and gave me a reassuring smile. "I'll help you" he whispered. Phil was so special. I couldn't ask for a better friend.
***
A couple of minutes after, Rebecca, our manager, stood up and began a speech. "As the dinner is almost over, I just wanted to wish you all a happy, eventful new year and officially welcome Y/N to the family" Everyone began to clap, and Y/N, with her usual smile, blushed a little bit. It was the cutest thing ever, so cute that I couldn't look away from her, until she looked back at me and I pretended to be interested in what Rebecca was saying.
***
The dinner just finished, we were saying goodbye to the others and putting on our coats. I moved towards Y/N, trying to look as comfortable as ever, even though I was feeling extremely under pressure because of what I was about to ask her. Phil was behind me, so I was sure that he could hear me and Y/N talking.
"Y/N, why don't we hang out soon?" I found the courage to say. She raised her eyes and looked at me with a surprised face, her cheeks soon became red.
"Yeah, why don't we get a coffee sometimes?" Phil suggested. Thank God there's Phil, I thought. Her surprised expression was soon replaced by another smile.
"Yeah, sure" I breathed again. "Why don't we exchange numbers?" She suggested. I tried not to explode in the biggest smile ever.
"Yeah let's do this" I answered nonchalantly, handing her my iPhone.
***
A couple of minutes after, we were outside, where the wind was blowing and the temperature was lower than before. Phil distanced himself from us, because he had to call a taxi, and Y/N was going to do the same. The moment that I saw her next to me, with her phone in her hands, I realized that I wanted to see her again so badly and that I didn't want to leave without asking her if she wanted to see me again as well. With all the courage that I could find in me, I began to talk.
"Y/N, back in the restaurant, when I asked you if you wanted to hang out with us... I wasn't really talking about me and Phil... Well I was, I'd love to go out with you and Phil obviously" I mentally facepalmed myself. I was so stupid, I couldn't even say a few words without mumbling. "I just wanted to ask you to go out with me, without Phil... You know, to get to know each other" I said, maybe a bit too quickly. I hoped she'd understood what I told her, because I doubted that I would be able to say that again.
She said nothing. She looked at me, speechless, a shocked expression on her face, her phone still in her hands. In that moment, I knew I fucked everything up.
Dan you little shit, of course she doesn't want to go out with you, she barely knows you! The only questions you asked her today were how uni was going and what's the Italian translation of microwave. These thoughts were racing inside my mind, and I felt extremely embarrassed. It was true, I was nothing compared to her, I was just an antisocial nerd that liked staying inside playing videogames and watching anime. She was different, she was studying and planning a future career, she was living abroad and doing youtube videos as well. She didn't want to hang out with someone like me, I should've known that.
In that moment, Phil called me, gesturing me that our taxi had arrived. Without looking at Y/N, I walked towards the car, my hands on my pockets, my eyes fixed on the ground.
And then, in the exact moment when I was about to close the car door, I saw her quickly walking towards me. "Dan! It's a yes!" She said, with a big smile on her beautiful face.
Author's note:
Guess who's back? Me! I finished my exams at uni and now I've got a lot of time to spend writing. I'm so happy about that, this month was horrible, I've been studying non stop and now I'm extremely tired.
I've been obsessed with P!ATD recently, I wrote this chapter listening to Death Of A Bachelor, I'm in love and I seriously hope they'll come back to Italy soon. What's your favourite song by P!ATD (if you like them)?
I'll see you soon, it's a promise x
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