"How was the dinner?" Jennifer asked me while I was taking my heels off, in the exact moment I had entered the house. Heels should be illegal, I thought, massaging my foot. "Kayla told me about that" She explained, without taking her eyes off of the tv.
"It was alright" I answered, unbuttoning my coat. "They're all very chilled". She smiled for a second and looked me in the eyes.
Mine and Jennifer's relationship is not easy to describe. We have really different characters, she likes to party a lot, she doesn't study that much, she probably drinks beer more than water, and I'm the exact opposite of that. But still, in many moments I enjoy her presence: she is one of the very few people that I am comfortable to be silent with. Whenever me and her are alone at home, we can just watch a movie together without talking, and it's never awkward. Also, she has this power to immediately understand how I feel: if something's wrong, she is always the one who notices it first.
"Where's everyone?" I asked, as the house seemed empty.
"Kayla's in her room, Sierra and Louis are at a friend's party" She explained, taking a sip of a beer. "I'm not feeling very well, that's why I didn't go".
"Well, it's not really good to drink beer when you're sick" I said laughing, and she replied taking another sip.
I knocked at Kayla's door, but found out that she was already asleep, so I decided to do the same. I took my makeup off, untied my hair and put my pyjamas on and went to bed. But the memories of that day kept rolling through my head: meeting Dan Howell, talking to Dan Howell, Dan Howell asking me out... Everything was too exciting to go to sleep, and my mind kept wandering for at least two hours. Then, finally, my eyes closed.
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The day after, I was extremely busy with uni and youtube: I had an English exam in two days and also had to film a video. So I woke up at 8.30 AM, even though I was still very tired, and had breakfast while everyone else in the house was still asleep.
I studied for hours, until Sierra entered my room and informed me that lunch was ready. I was surprised that everyone was there: even Louis, who normally slept until 3 PM the day after a big party. We ate the food that Sierra had cooked, and everyone started to ask me what had happened the night before.
"We didn't do that much really". I explained. "We went to this very fancy restaurant, all the other youtubers were there also". Kayla looked at me with an exciting expression.
"Were Dan and Phil there?" She asked me while she was chewing her food.
"Yes of course". I blushed when she mentioned Dan. And of course everyone noticed. "I already knew Phil a bit, but I met Dan". I continued, trying to sound as chilled as possible: but everyone noticed that my cheeks were even more red than before.
"Do you like him?" Jennifer asked without taking her eyes off of her lasagna. I felt all their eyes on me.
"I mean, he's pretty good looking I guess". I answered, avoiding their looks.
"Okay you like him". Kayla said. Was that true? Did I like him? I didn't even know him that good. Physically, there's no doubt that he was really beautiful. But I didn't know him as a person, I just knew him from youtube and yesterday's dinner.
"I don't even know him that well". I answered her.
"Why don't you find that out? Will you see him soon?" Sierra said, while pouring some white wine in her glass. Should I tell them that he asked me out? I didn't even know if he actually asked me out for a date or if he just wanted me as a friend.
"I don't know, maybe". I responded, finishing my last piece of lasagna and standing up, feeling that this conversation was getting awkward. I took my plate and glass and put them in the sink, but Kayla told me that she would do the washing, as I had a lot of things to do.
I went to my room and, despite the thought of the conversation I just had with my roommates, I continued to study, waiting for them to be less noisy so that I could film.
As I was setting up my camera and tripod, someone knocked at my door: it was Kayla, who entered my room and asked if she could interrupt what I was doing for a little bit.
"I just wanted to know if what you told us at lunch was everything that happened yesterday night... If you want to tell me, you know". She shyly asked me. I gave her a smile and thought that she deserved to know about Dan. She was the one who made me join the management , she had to know.
"Well, Dan and Phil asked me if I wanted to hang out with them. I said yes, of course" I saw her excitement in her eyes.
"That's incredible babe!" She clapped her hands and hugged me. She then understood that this wasn't the only thing that had happened. "What else didn't you tell me before?". I felt my cheeks going on fire.
"You know, I was alone with Dan at one point" I quietly confessed.
"Oh my god, did he kiss you?" She covered her mouth with her hands. I laughed at her reaction.
"No, he didn't!" I saw a bit of disappointment on her face. "He asked me if I wanted to see him again... you know, just me and him, and I said yes" Her exciting look was back on her face.
"Oh my god, you're going on a date with Dan Howell!" She started jumping, whilst I tried to tell her to be more quiet, though I couldn't help but laugh at her.
"I don't know if I can consider it as a date or not". I sat on my bed. "He just asked if I wanted to hang out with him. I was a bit shocked at the beginning and I didn't answer him. We were outside the restaurant and he then had to catch a taxi. I managed to answer him just in time". I remembered that awkward moment where I wasn't able to answer him, as I was shocked by what he had asked me.
"Oh come on" Kayla snorted. "He surely asked you out. Otherwise why did he want to meet you without Phil?" She had a point.
"I know... but I still can't believe that a successful young man like him, who could go out with a lot of beautiful women, asked me out. I mean, look at me!" I said pointing at my face.
"Yes, look at you!" Kayla put her hand on my shoulder. "You're a beautiful, funny, talented and independent young lady that nobody could dislike. Stop thinking you're not worth it, you don't even know how many people would love to have someone like you by their side". I hugged her tightly, as a couple of tears rolled down my cheeks.
Author's note:
I know, nothing really happened in this chapter, but don't worry, Dan will come back soon.
I already mentioned it, but I wanted to tell you again that I began a Brendon Urie fanfic, it's called How to love and it'd be amazing if you checked that out (if you like P!ATD of course).
That being said, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'll see you soon babes xx
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